>be amab on hrt
>find cis gf
>adhd autistic social mirroring makes me believe im mtf
>get ffs
>we break up like weeks post surgery
>sudden realization of what i turned myself into hits causing massive waves of disassociation
what the fuck do i do now i was only okay with being a woman under the pretense of my relationship
Get a new gf to mirror
>causing massive waves of disassociation
Only males talk this way you should have known about your psychological masculine thinking
>on hrt
???
>adhd autistic social mirroring makes me believe im mtf
Why do people attach a list of psychological disorders to excuse having a void of personality? I see it all the time online. Lots of people have these diagnoses while still having a sense of self.
>>adhd autistic social mirroring makes me believe im mtf
I don't believe you.
If you shut yourself in for years, you wont have any personality. But socializing hurts too, so it's sort of unavoidable. Soon we feel lonely, look for gfs or porn, wish we were like them, then hop on the E juice.
Understanding all of this doesnt help, I still want to keep trooning out even though I know its hurting me and that i can snap out of it someday. I just hope I dont regret this too much if that happens
T. Aspergers troon
i don't have the willpower to open up myself to another person
cptsd induced peterpan syndrome/enbyism
well I felt as if the relationship required me to be a woman to really flourish and so with it being a relationship I cherished I did what I could to make that actually happen hence the ffs
>well I felt as if the relationship required me to be a woman to really flourish and so with it being a relationship I cherished I did what I could to make that actually happen hence the ffs
This is a lesson about being a doormat and healthy relationships user, not about you being trans or not.
waaaaah my gf broke up with me and im not trans anymore. see a shrink
>peterpan syndrome/enbyism
Surely getting FFS is useful for this too? Just change your social presentation and be a pretty genderfucked male
I thought autists failed to mirror
if you are so mentally fucked up that you can be passively coerced into mutilating yourself by sheer proximity to an equally fucked up person, your genes are best not passed down to pollute the gene pool anyhow
This is just natural selection at work
you said it yourself, these people dont have personalities or identities beyond their gender and mental insanity. add the victim complex woe is me special snowflake angle to it and its easy to see why so many do it
post surgery depression lol
get therapy and wait a couple months
you sound like someone who would’ve been gatekept from trans health care by any sane system
ding ding ding
can't believe I had to scroll all the way down to find that
How long were you on hrt for? My guess is probably 2+ years. If you were a cis man you’d cut it out by the three month mark because of boob growth causing reverse dysphoria. Chances are because you’re single now you’re worried that your chances getting with a cis woman are next to nil, and you refuse to date other trans women because of internalized transphobia. So now you’re considering detransing/repping in order to increase your popularity with cis women.
Sounds like you need a bf to remove your boy. I gladly volunteer.
this is so retarded
Bump cause I wanna know