How do I deal with the fact that testosterone has made me ugly and keeps making me even uglier as time goes by?

How do I deal with the fact that testosterone has made me ugly and keeps making me even uglier as time goes by?
I was fine before puberty, but ever since then, and especially since it really started kicking in (I'm a very late bloomer and only started growing proper facial hair at like 20, I am 24 now), I hate looking in the mirror. Especially because I know the older I get, the more hideous I get. I an especially terrified to lose my hair. I'd rather die than look like a middle aged man.
I just want to be cute and stay cute for as long as possible. Is HRT my only hope? I have no desire to be female, though they have far superior bodies and aesthetics compared to men. The issue is of course, being a guy with tits isnt exactly socially acceptable, and I dont want estrogen fucking with how I think and feel.
Should I just accept that I will never be cute again and am therefore ugly, and kill myself? Or is there something that can be done?

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>they have far superior bodies and aesthetics compared to men
stopped reading

I got on estrogen and cut my cock off so maybe that?

I don't care what you think, androphile.

not even my androphilia, women are objectively weaker, shorter, and fatter than men

>weaker, shorter
Don't care. I want to be cute, not strong and manly.
>fatter
That depends entirely on the individual. To be honest I would probably be in better shape if I had a lezs masculinizee body, because I would actually see a point in maintaining myself.

ok have fun being an irrelevant and helpless 5'1 dwarf while a powerful 6'8 chad towers over you

I'm 5'10 and nothing changes height. I dont care about height anyway.
Why would I give a shit about "chads" in the first place? I don't compare myself to them and I don't want to. They're not cute, and have shit dudebro personalities.

have fun being a balding faggot
desu op there are 2 ways out of being a man: transition or suicide. ya gotta pick one.

I guess itll be suicide then.