Mental illness

I have the most chronic case of adhd you could possibly imagine to the point where it's debilitating in all aspects of my life. Like it's so bad that if it was autism id be nonverbal, or living full time in a fantasy reality if it was schizophrenia. I've never been functional enough to hold down a job before but I'm hot enough to earn a ton of money through online sex work during the periods where I can manage it. God really said I'm gonna make u crippled with mental illness but here's a 10 incher so you can eat.

>Do you really have mental illness?
NPD, possibly ASPD
>Are you on disability?
nah
> Have you ever held a job?
Currently work as a manager at a big 4 accounting firm.
>Have you been locked up in the mental institution, or psychiatric hospital
I did a stint in the suicide watch section of the county jail back in high school if that counts.

So what was the process of going there, did you just ask or were you placed there?

lol my mom put me in there
usually the wait lists are months long. my mom found a place with like a week waiting list

That wasn't my experience, but I do see on TV where lawyers advertise to help people get on Social Security disability.
I just went down to the disability department and got on disability by seeing a psychiatrist one time hecsaid "if you could push a button" he'd give it to me immediately. That really wasn't Social Security disability my case got forwarded over to the Social Security Administration and because I was disabled in childhood and my father was deceased I was able to get Social Security Disability under my father's Social Security as a dependent child. I've never been off of it.
I did go to college and manage to get through under the Disability Act and then met a man later on who wanted to marry me but I wouldn't get off disability cuz I was too frightened. It was sort of like my ticket to survival.
When I was younger I was in a psychiatric hospital for several months because I was psychotic. When I got out I went to a halfway house school situation and never really thought of myself as normal after that I just accept the fact that I'm mentally ill. I don't trust having to perform like a normal person. I think also being a tranny is a sign of mental illness but that's just my opinion so take it with a grain of salt
I really couldn't cope and if the kid was being male it just seemed like I was not able to do it or figure out how to be masculine I just made fun of him picked on for being feminine like a girl it just got tiresome and pretty soon I just started telling everybody I was a girl that my parents are just forcing me to dress like a boy that's around the time when I first got hospitalized. Today, I really don't think that I'm really male I think I'm delusional about it I don't really think I'm man

I believe you more than anybody ever read from this board! There's something about what you're saying that just seems to be honestly true.
I was in the psychiatric hospital called Rivercrest and it was a huge hospital and had an adolescent program and I got really paranoid when I first went there because I wanted to dress like a female all the time.
I was afraid that I'd get beat up but the kids there were so used to crazy people that they accepted me and actually got to be friends with some of the girls and treated as another girl!
I had my first sexual experience with the boys there. What I'm trying to say is it was really the best time of my life even now that I'm older and able to do what I want, it's just not as much fun as it was when I was a kid in the psychiatric ward

I'm not being judged fiddle or an asshole but he means what you sound like a whole lot more sane person than me. I was not anything even close to being capable of managing anything in my life. I do well enough just to get my check cashed and have the money last month to month. I used to rent but stopped doing that and started living in a mobile home that my mother helped buy. I have to pay the space rent which is kind of expensive right now but my check pays it with enough left over with food stamps and mission food i get by here in southern Oregon.

My poison is comorbid ADD, OCD, narcolepsy, and schizoaffective depressive type.
Every day I spend hours hyper fixated on things I don't enjoy. Screaming at myself to do what I want and need to do. Being on the verge of passing out and feeling too tweaked to ever relax. While being haunted and tormented by ghastly spirits.

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i was diagnosed with bdd, adhd, anxiety, and ptsd, idk if that means im mentally ill though, im mostly normal.
im not on disability i just am reliant on my parents.
ive held jobs before but not since before covid and transitioning
ive not been institutionalized or held against my will, because i always known to never admit to any suicidal urges even when they are real.

>Do you really have mental illness?
Yes but not tested
>Are you on disability?
Hai hai :D
>Have you ever held a job?
nope
>Have you been locked up in the mental institution, or psychiatric hospital
nope :D

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You sound more like a wayward kid than anyone with mental illness

Mental illness does not mean that you're become proficient in all these abbreviations mental illness is not a gateway to becoming more intelligent in fact the opposite might be true. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and child adolescent type of schizophrenia I don't know how to spell the word that is used for the official diagnosis but it pulls down to a schizophrenia diagnosis