My dad got married last weekend and i never wanted to unalive so bad since i started transitioning

my dad got married last weekend and i never wanted to unalive so bad since i started transitioning

>be me 25 late transition boymoder
>dad told me it was going to be a casual wedding so i could wear whatever makes me comfortable
>wearing formal shorts and a fitted button up with a floral print
>bf is wearing pants and a plain button up
>sister is wearing a dress
>all the real women are wearing dresses
>all the guys show up wearing shorts and a t-shirt, not even a little bit formal
>have to introduce myself to 20+ people, i use [deadname] for ease
>theyre all commenting how i gained 2 sisters and they gained a brother (me) and a sister
>tie up my sisters shoe at one point
>some boomer yells from across the room "thats what BROTHERS are good for"
>constantly getting compliments on how pretty i look but like for a gay man

worst part was seeing my step-mom in her dress though, she looked so beautiful and i couldnt help being jealous that even if i have a wedding i will never look even remotely as nice as she does in picrel

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sounds like you are your own devil

she looks fat tbqh

If I ever nab a tranner I'm insisting on a wedding with all the bells and whistles no matter what.
Every girl deserves to feel like a beautiful princess at least once.

this is a wake-up call to start being more confident girlmoding
i probably don't have the right to be lecturing you because i am also a boymoder, and not late-transition, but it really sounds like you should be more open and confident being a girl

I wouldn't marry you, that sounds awful. I literally would be happier signing a piece of paper and going home.

she looks pretty

fuck you man, in my country over 40% of women are overweight. shes not a whale and shes goddam beautiful in this dress

my face literally wont pass without ffs, theres no point when ive only malefailed twice in my 2 year career as a boymoder. i dont want to pity pass and i already get enough shit for being a fruity looking gay

sorry user, weddings are some of the most gendered events in our society. that’s really tough when you’re closeted.
>even if i have a wedding i will never look even remotely as nice as she does in picrel
i doubt that’s true user. unless you’re planning never to girlmode, i think you will look beautiful at your wedding.

mm, that is a nuanced situation
i am sorry for you, kate
i still encourage you to be fem though you probably already are, enbycoping may be viable
i really wish you the best and hope ffs might eventually make passing a regular thing

I don't know, if you can't appreciate the importance of a ceremony and indulge a little bit then I have to wonder what the point of getting married at all is.
Mind you I think most of the time people who express this do so because they're either insecure about themselves or it'd make them feel like frauds, which are both things you'd want to work on before marriage anyway.

That's why me and my gf of 10+ years don't want to get married ever. We'd literally just be doing it for tax cuts and legal securities, so why fucking bother?
Also a whole day of being the center of attention sounds like hell on earth for both of us.

>ive only malefailed twice in my 2 year career as a boymoder
i mean if you intentionally present yourself as a man you can’t be surprised when people see you that way. hell i know cis butch women who don’t malefail.
social transition takes courage user, but the rewards are life-changingly good, and the flak you’ll catch for it is less than the pain of staying in the closet forever.

its a shame ffs has such a long list/ is prohibitively expensive here, i literally have $30 in my bank account after paying for injections this week so i cannot even afford to get psychologists to write me surgery letters atm

ive tried girlmoding and i just get such awful looks from strangers, maybe its because i live in the neighborhood near chinatown but they ive been called a fag more when im girlmoding then when im just a fruity guy

the 2 times ive malefailed were when i was wearing a tight tanktop and opened the door to delivery workers, im not going outside in a shirt where you can see my areolas if thats the cost of girlmoding

um. that’s not what girlmoding means user, and i think you know that. but if you’re determined to wallow in misery and be a groom at your wedding, i doubt i can change your mind over an internet message board.
>t. bride

You went there with your boyfriend. Couldn't you really wear anything more feminine or was it your own brainworms stopping you? I bet the boomers commenting your masculinity all just meant to cheer up some insecure fag, because everyone could see that you're the "woman" in the relationship.

>fuck you man, in my country over 40% of women are overweight. shes not a whale and shes goddam beautiful in this dress
then 40% of the women in your country are fat

I want to make Kate feel like a girl while she wears her male fail tank top

>Then 40% of your women are fat
user learns about Americans for the first time.

I feel physically sick when I read the words "my dad got married". Or 1000000x worse "my mom got married" - this shit is why God is going to destroy the world in fire. It's fucking obscene. Guess what Americans, when you become a parent, especially a mother, you cease being a person. You fulfil your role as a parent, and you kill the part of you that wants to do stupid shit like divorce, have sex, or anything else like that.

>mommy and daddy should pay all their attention to me cause god and jesus said so!
okay lil guy, let’s get you a snackypoo! someone gets cranky when he’s hungry

based and true and factual and correct

weddings always make me so conflicted cuz they can be the source of so many problems both with friends and family but also with the foundation of a marriage

but the event itself is such a beautiful thing if done properly and just such a dreamy event...

im not american but same difference

i simply mean the only times ive been coded as girl my tits were nearly visible, if thats what i have to do to be seen as a women i would rather just stay in boymode

Your step mom looks fat

There's a reason pretty much every culture has some sort of bonding ritual, the point of it is that it tests and strengthens your relationship. Weddings are a huge undertaking and a massive pain in the ass, and that's the point. It's a bonding experience. The challenge and the magic of it brings you closer together.
That and I think most girls do sincerely dream of being a bride but have kind of convinced themselves they don't deserve it.

i always see the problems from weddings coming from large weddings where everything has to be perfect

my dad had a backyard casual wedding that was super cheap and allowed them to go on a 2 week honeymoon after, i think it was super cute and ideal

>if thats what i have to do to be seen as a women i would rather just stay in boymode
you can double down on saying the same stupid nonsense but it doesn’t change the fact that girlmoding is an attainable thing you’re just afraid to do. you set up the dichotomy in your mind of “pretend to be a boy” vs. “go around with my tits out?!?!” but in reality you know girlmoding isn’t either of those things. your two choices are evolve or repeat, good luck deciding user.