Does anyone else just stop and think about how weird dysphoria is sometimes? Like, I should have been a typical guy, trying to be cool, tall, smart, etc... but my brain freaks out at being a guy and won't let me do it? Not even just feeling bad stuff either, trying to be a guy leads me to want to take knives to offending body parts or sui.
Okay, you can argue that dysphoria is a mental disorder, but how did my brain become so broken it's literally happy to hurt itself if I can't act and look like a girl? I was never abused and had a reasonable childhood, so that can't be a cause.
A lot of medical organisations suspect it's a pre-natal development fuck up, but that just seems statistically unlikely. This supposedly affects about 1 in 240ish males, and I'm supposed to believe that I'm the unlucky one? That, and my ancestors somehow managed to follow instincts and reproduce successfully for 1000s of years, just for nature to fuck up with me?
Honestly, it makes me wonder that if gender can seemingly be determined that strongly by a biological fuck up, how much of 'free will' is actually real and how much is fixed by biology.
Dysphoria honestly feels like it fits more in some magical universe as a curse more than real life. Like some evil being designed the curse so you can force yourself to act however you want, but action in any way except what they want causes unbearable mental pain. Hell, being cursed by trying on the wrong amulet you picked up in a dungeon would seem more realistic than the statistical change of something fucking up in the womb permanently making me want to exist in a certain way.
It was caused by microplastics but it’s also real. Once the infant has been affected, transition is the only viable option. That said, it absolutely has to do with pollution and environmental contaminants
Parker Thomas
Weirdly enough, this honestly seems one possibility. They found studies that show trannies are more likely to have gene mutations to make binding t less effective and one of the leading other theories suggests needed hormone exposure in the womb was either mistimed or did not happen.
In other words, basically all their best theories currently are hormone fuckery in the womb. So if microplastics and other endocrine disruptors are mimicking female hormones, then that could possibly be related as well. Unfortunately, since it's generally seen as a conspiracy theory I doubt we'll see any good studies on a relation between microplastics and gender dysphoria.
Bentley Garcia
Even the treatment for it feels weird. Like I get the want to effectively induce puberty, but that means that people and doctors are literally targeting the hormonal profile of a teenage girl.
Literally the treatment for dysphoria is to flood your system with drugs to make your endocrine system as much like a teenager as possible. It definitely helps the dysphoria, but describing it seems like an insane way to treat a problem like this though.
Although I guess they had nothing else that worked except sui or a lobotomy.
Jeremiah Hill
tbdesu it's just so weird, no cap. certainly not bussing and honestly.. weird AF my sister in Christ
Ryder Ortiz
>Honestly, it makes me wonder that if gender can seemingly be determined that strongly by a biological fuck up, how much of 'free will' is actually real and how much is fixed by biology. Free will is an illusion. It is a person's nature and circumstances that determines their actions. Whether or not you accept this is also determined by your circumstances, and is in itself a circumstance that affects your future decisions.
I've made peace with it, and just enjoy the ride. It's an interesting life, you know? It helps that it's easy for me to dissociate, since my older brother used to torture me when I was little by tickling me until I stopped responding in any way. So I get to enjoy all the good parts, and during the bad parts I just mentally nope out until it's all better. It's great.
Connor Reed
I am a FTM but my explanation is the fact that I only have one ovary
Sebastian Diaz
it's so weird, that I wont even transition. like wtf, if I can't even explain it to myself how could I ever live like that.
Levi Perry
Maybe. It feels kind of unsatisfying to think you're effectively just a meat robot reacting to it's environment though, so I'm going to keep choosing to believe free will is a thing.
I guess reasoning like the above though might be why most people don't want to accept free will may not be real.
Cameron Perry
I haven't looked into FTM explanations much, but I wouldn't be surprised if hormone fuckery could go both ways, assuming that is the cause.
Oliver Brown
I mean, you do you, but part of what makes it so weird for me is that trying to resist it made me want to kill myself.
It's pretty fucked up in some ways, like unless I conform to how my brain wants me to be I end up wanting to die. Sadly we don't know nearly enough about how brains work in general to even get close to explaining why dysphoria does things like this.
Elijah Fisher
well yea, I do. but, I mean its not the only reason I'm not doing it. but it is one of them.
Wyatt Morgan
Well, best of luck with repping user. Unfortunately I've literally never seen it work for anyone long term though.
Connor Myers
well, for me its because its a necessity. It will never work for me. and with the added benefit that I don't even fully understand it, I won't do it. and if that means I die early, so be it.
Leo Price
for me i was groomed as a kid, no father around, and i develop fear of girls for being bullied
its hell, because i know these are traumas, still the traumas are now part of me, and its not so easy to change that.
Gavin Lewis
At least you're resolved about it. Although if it ever does get to that point where dying is your other option, why not try it anyway?
Even if you're an ugly hon things can't really get any worse if you were killing yourself anyway. No point in refusing to try out of some stubborn pride in that state.
Henry Richardson
well I got stuff like chronic pain, so with more than likely little benefit from transitioning, I'd probably end up going anyway.
Easton Brown
I like to think of myself more like an animal than a robot. The intense passions and emotions that drive me are something I savour. I see no reason to fight it.
My acceptance of it is because of my whimsical and carefree personality, and likewise reinforces it. Rejecting it may mean you're more reserved.
Anthony Reyes
That's fair. If you have to deal with chronic pain plus gender dysphoria I can't really blame you for wanting to give up.
Life sucks and is inescapable most of the time, but sometimes I just want to throw a fuck you at life and try to force things to go my way regardless.
Henry Gomez
Ah, that's an interesting way to look at it. However, for me rejecting that kind of behaviour is the opposite of being reserved. You're still effectively just reacting to your environment and letting your emotions and instincts control everything.
Personally, even though dysphoria kicked my ass enough to go alone with it, I hate being told how to live, even if it is just natural instincts. I prefer to think things over and then try to force my preferred way. Even if free will isn't real, and I'm just biologically programmed to act that way, I prefer resisting than just going with the flow and following instincts with no critical thought.
Cooper Cook
Also speaking of animals, back to gender dysphoria being weird, they did a study where they found that if you castrate male rats immediately after birth they display female sexual behaviour throughout their lives.
You can't ask a rat if it thinks of itself as a boy or a girl, but it has some interesting implications. Plus, for all the idiots who say 'you don't see gender identity in nature' again, this implies that might not be true.
