Stop it you fucking idiots. You're not stoic titans, able to repress one of the most fundamental aspects of your own psychology indefinitely, and don't kid yourself into thinking you'll just commit suicide, if you were going to you would have already.
I broke three weeks ago, and I've spent the past three weeks mostly bitter and regretful about how long I've repressed and how much time I've wasted, how much better it could have been if I'd done it when I was 15 rather than repressing till I was 26. I don't care if you're fucking 40, it's better than waiting till you're 60.
I want to take my past self say all of this to them, scream at them and shake them till they stop being such a coward. Minimise the damage while you can, idiots.
I am a low maintenance MALE which means I do the bare minimum to take care of myself. Hrt will not solve this it will simple give me a different kind of body dysphoria, one that will demand I change how I live in more ways than taking a pill. Do you understand? I am not only not meant to stop repressing, if I did it would actively get worse. I dont do this because I am some monolith of emotional stability, I am doing it because it is impossible for me to change how I live. yes this is pathetic I know. And If i could change my life around I would. But i simply cant, I tried to take proactive measures, it is simple not possible. Depression had me by the balls since childhood. All this gender shit is just pointless to even consider at this point. I should be focusing on other things. I am regretting it, but also I see why I never had a choice anyway. You will be fine.
Camden Bennett
Yes, you're not fucking superman, do it now or risk doing it when you're middle-aged.
Elijah Ramirez
Repressed until I was 28 (lol broke my egg on my birthday) I don't even know where or how to start. Shit's though.
Logan Cook
I know exactly what you mean, and you know what, all those new ways of taking care of myself that I used to use as an excuse? They thrill me now, they excite me. A real opportunity to live a life, and I'm probably not even going to pass. Actually taking care of myself, actually building a foundation on which I can start to deal with the depression that's been there since childhood? It's an opportunity, not a threat.
Charles Allen
>26 year old telling me it's not too late it's too late bro, enjoy being born in le right generation
Noah Evans
yup, I also repped until 26, started hrt a month ago I wish I had done it at 19 or 20 when I was a click away from ordering hrt online. But at least I'm doing it now.
Jack Bailey
I'm not going to pass I don't think, but I'd rather be a freakish monster than go on pretending to be a man. Even if you're 40, simply acknowledging what you are and living that way will make things better. I've not started anything, medical or social yet, and I'm already energised by simply knowing that I'm going to be that freak in a dress, brave enough to put myself out there.
Zachary Brooks
It's the only viable option. They both suck, but I'd be such a horrific hon and it would ruin my life even more.
Robert Moore
Yeah, it's a fucked situation but why not go for it.
Tyler Hall
I can't fucking do it ok? I legit bought the diy shit from brazil and I still haven't even LOOKED at the vial inside. I dont have syringes and probably will never buy them. And I cant ask for official help either, i dont have the social support, since I grew up on hating trannies, and my family would never accept this. And I can't do all the things needed to actually pass like skincare or makeup or voice training or w/e else. I am in limbo and I will not escape.
>even if you're 40 This is as high as you zoomers can count lol
Austin Gutierrez
exactly better to do it now than in another 5 or 10 years at least people still guess that I'm 19 or 20
Easton Perez
Same actually, I'm in the UK where the drinking age is 18 and I've never not been ID'd. It was partially seeing my face start to age a bit, and people start to say I looked like my Father that scared the hell out of me.
Jason Butler
Believe me, I'm trying not to go insane in here. I'm unsure of my family's opinion of the transgender; on one hand, they seem supportive (like they don't like them being treated like shit) but on the other hand, they make kinda sus jokes which is minor, I know, but the risk is always there.
Maybe I'll move somewhere and then do it. My girl is in Canada atm, so there's an option, as cucked as it sounds (I am politically uh... The opposite of Trudeau, shall we say).
Isaac Parker
>and I've spent the past three weeks mostly bitter and regretful about how long I've repressed and how much time I've wasted, how much better it could have been if I'd done it when I was 15 rather than repressing till I was 26 sounds like it sucks i'll keep my head in the sand thanks
Zachary White
Then move, I told my parents recently and they were supportive but before telling them I was prepared to break contact and leave if it went poorly.
No day like today, every day you don't do it you'll be regretting once you finally do.
Charles Richardson
For now, let go of that male ego and stop telling yourself you can go on forever.
Nolan Butler
The worst part I feel is when you tell yourself you have accepted everything and will for sure do everything right but then go back to the same old routine waiting for change. Is that repression but with added delusion?
Adrian Martin
Unironically how did you rep so long? Like when we where 18,19,20 it was the tipping point how did you not end up trooning? I'm interested because I'd always kinda assumed that with trans stuff becoming more mainstream all the trannies in our generation would have come out in like teens or very early twenties and we weren't gonna get this drip, drip of people still coming out that older generations had.
William Davis
> here Grew up in South France, we it was clearly not as culturally accepted as other places. Grew up with sisters, and was expected to become the man of the family. Also very timid and introvert, so coming out flamboyantly was not exactly an option, and I never felt like it was a good moment. Puberty hit like a truck and after that, I never though I could be a beautiful girl and just repressed it really hard. Fuck, if I had known...
I deluded myself thinking I could wait until 25 because "that's the end point of growth for humans" I wasnt very informed about what that meant for transitioning. I was also coping with "femboymaxxing" which is bullshit cause I wasnt a femboy in any sense. Also also I legit didnt know hrt was a thing until I entered this board lmao Sometimes I too wonder if I am legit or just groomed.
Ryan Johnson
listen, let me make this simple for you, as much as there is in this world telling me and others to transition there is just enough telling me not. Stop with the “ISNT IT OBVIOUS YOU NEED TO TRANSITIOJ ITS A PART OF YOU YOU NEED IT!! ITS YOUR FEELINGS!” talk. If it was that easy for someone to not transition do you really think they would’ve? People have parents and people close to them who don’t support them, they work in fields where that shit isn’t excepted ever, they live in countries that don’t accept it, etc. Personally for me I’m just dumb, I found out my sexuality and supposedly my ‘truthful gender’ through porn and other nasty AGP translesbian bullshit. Not a good reason to transition. But whatever, just stop assuming that it’s universal for repression because it’s simply not.
Ayden Robinson
OP here, I made some initial steps towards transition at 16, grew my hair out and started dressing effeminately, but I was already being bullied for being the weird gay kid so this didn't go well. Got absolutely shit on, people actually correctly intuited what I was moved towards. Culminated in my being violently assaulted while out walking with my boyfriend. I was and am fairly sensitive so this scared me so bad that I ended up spending the last ten years trying religion, drugs, alcohol and sex to escape it. Mentally associated trooning with getting publicly stoned.
