MtF and FtM trans, how do you masturbate and what are your orgasms like?

it was after about a year that i () started to be able to feel it too

>I grind my clit, it's a buildup which feels good during the end.
that's sorta what a male orgasm is. do you feel tired or like shit after?

>I also feel more sad than before after I masturbate
same. i feel like absolute garbage after i masturbate. i'm trying to hope that i could remove all this doubt in my head but i hate how obsessed with using my dick i am. if i want a female orgasm i need to adopt female sexuality but my brain keeps telling me that having a dick is the way to go

>I only do it when I'm bored and have nothing else to do
interesting. i guess without testosterone your sex drive is a lot lower?

do you only bottom? i just feel like i'm missing out too much because i'm too obsessed with using my dick
i'm worried that my brain is too obsessed with topping and i'm never going to have good orgasms because i top too much.
every time i jack off my dick like a man i feel like i'm reinforcing a bad neural pathway but this is genuinely what i enjoy and i hate it. i just want to feel what the other anons and you feel here but i feel like being a top is crippling it

>my orgasms are full-body with aftershocks. before i felt it i thought cumming was a meme but i literally can't control the noises i make.
as is often reported with bottom mtfs. do you ever touch your dick?

>hrt made my orgasms longer lasting and more full-body.
through using your dick like a clit, i presume?

>post op i just rub my clit or use a vibe like any other girls. orgasms are even better than they were and i usually thrash and twitch for a minute or more before my mind comes back.
i'm happy that you have great results. i guess this sort of pleasure is not for people who use their dicks like a man does?
is it purely clit stimulation?

how do you masturbate?

>do you only bottom
I bottom exclusively. I would feel like a man if I didn't, plus having my prostate slammed over and over is the best feeling in the world

>Ftms? Wondering what they do.
ftm, didnt masturbate until testosterone made my clit grow (its like 3 inches now). feels the same as this ftmanon

OP just order HRT already god damn. you've been at this for months or more.

>as is often reported with bottom mtfs. do you ever touch your dick?
lmfao no. my clit doesn't even feel good when i touch it anymore, its completely dead. the only thing it ever gets used for is a semi-flacid toy for my gf to torture and grind into before she fucks me but even that is starting to just hurt rather than feel good.

I use a vibrator on my girldick while reading erotica or thinking about guys or girls I know who I want to bottom for.

oh jeez you’re that user who’s obsessed with having female orgasms huh? i’ve responded to your threads before i’m not doing this with you again. just take your pills or don’t idc but i’m tired of the same thread over and over with you

i guess you're the schizo from futagen, full body orgasm are a meme
but take your pills already

>I would feel like a man if I didn't
understandable. my male mind is telling me that using my dick is based but i feel like i'm never going to have a real orgasm if i use my dick.
i'm trying to cope by telling myself HRT and somehow just futamaxxing but it seems like nobody could achieve this pleasure unless they are a bottom and sub
there's no way to get my dick sucked and still enjoy such pleasure i fear

i'm not even on hrt though, as you can tell i'm just a coombrained retard with vagina and female orgasm envy

>plus having my prostate slammed over and over is the best feeling in the world
i don't enjoy prostate play, sadly.

this is completely about sex even though my sexuality is too far gone. i'm a cis male top and there is no way to reconcile this
how do i both hate the fact that i cum like a man but also want to jack my dick off like a man? in my mind i'm wanting two incompatible things

sounds similar to what a man would feel

that's quite interesting

again, treating it like a giant clit. seems like this is the way to go. i

idk which user you are but you got me
i should just take my pills and fuck around and find out sorry for getting in your way again
have a good day

>i guess you're the schizo from futagen, full body orgasm are a meme
are they a meme it seems a lot of anons here get them just not through using their dick like a man

>but take your pills already
i almost ordered some today after masturbating but instead closed the tab and here i fucking am again

>>I grind my clit, it's a buildup which feels good during the end.
>that's sorta what a male orgasm is. do you feel tired or like shit after?
No. There is no physically induced post nut clarity or tiredness.

how do you feel worse after you masturbate then?
you say that you masturbate like a man does?

>i guess without testosterone your sex drive is a lot lower?
yes and I'm so glad it is I never liked masturbating and now I can basically never do it if I want to
Tbh I can masturbate differently and it's far more pleasurable, I just need to um how do I even describe it. Slowly rub the head of it and every time I get close to coming stop and wait a little and start rubbing it again and so on. I once did it for like 20-25 minutes and it was far more pleasurable than what I get just from stroking it for 3 minutes and being over with it, I liked it kinda but it's still not something I want to do regularly so I don't do it.

I get full body orgasms as a cis guy on HRT and have never tried using anything but my dick. Maybe they'd be even better anally but idk, I'm not interested in that.

And yes I'm the one who started at your current age and who has replied to you like 30 times at this point. Just order the fucking pills already instead of asking the same thing literally hundreds of times.

I've never heard anyone else say this before but I think I prefer the feeling of taking HRT for just a few days or weeks. It's like a hybrid male and female orgasm for me. A mix of the long, radiating full-body feeling and the typical male orgasm feeling. It's not quite as distributed and long as it is when on HRT for longer but I think it's the best of both worlds. No idea what your experience might be like, though

>i guess without testosterone your sex drive is a lot lower?
lmfao NO, i fantasize about getting fucked literally constantly

I'm post-SRS, so I fuck myself with a dildo and use a Hitachi on my clit.

>how do you feel worse after you masturbate then?
I believe you misunderstand. I don't necessarily feel worse, if I do it's just standard dysphoria or self-hate, not post nut clarity which is directly caused by ejaculation in males. After I finish I can resume whatever I was doing before just fine.
>you say that you masturbate like a man does?
No, unless you count exclusively touching the clit as manly, as opposed to vaginal penetration. But, I don't know the number of women who actually masturbate by fingering themselves and/or shoving things up their hole, they most likely are a minority