Thinking I might not actually have Gender Dysphoria

I was thinking that I might not actually be dysphoric. that instead, I have other issues, happened to kinda identify with GD, and post hoc made past events feels more important than they actually were

>daydream about being a woman
only really happened a few times a month. when sleeping I'd also dream about myself as I currently am. also accepting daydreams seems silly, it's like thinking that dream actually mean important things, I don't believe it though
>dislike masculinizing body
actually don't like it, but have much worse things going on, masculinizing isn't as bad as say my skin condition, or receding hairline
>wanted to be princess when really really young
also wanted to be other things like a knight (not a king though)
>really hard imagining growing up to be an old woman
hard to imagine being really old anyway, doesn't feel like I have much of a future. but still
>liked being called ma'am/miss (mistakenly)
idk, only happened twice, seems like a fluke, maybe it was just embarrassment that I misconstrued as liking.
>obviously don't want it that bad
am repressing, but even still, I considered trying my best just in case but I stress-eat when I feel particularly bad.
>seems unlikely, only caring about it now
I figured this stuff out so late. what are the chances that I only now figured it out instead of much earlier in life.

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what are the chances that I actually don't have GD and that I should just try forgetting this stuff?

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Idk

get off hrt n see if u wanna kys

I have had thoughts/doubts like this user you sound pretty clearly trans for me. If you have bad skin and don't want receding hairline just take hrt for that i guess, you don't have to socially transition or anything

not op but similar
i was off for a few months and wanted to die

not on hrt, and wanna kms. but I've wanted to kms since I was a kid, so meh.

the skin issue (psoriasis) can't really be helped by hrt.
the thing I'm worrying about is that maybe this isn't actually my true issue, that instead, I have other issues, with minor moments in life imagining living as a woman kind of thing, and just extrapolating that into something bigger.
like I used to daydream/relive past events but as a woman, but since I considered that I might be kinda trans the thoughts are instantly shut down (and not as frequent) cause I'm not sure if they are real or just me trying to invent reasons why I might be trans.

>but I've wanted to kms since I was a kid, so meh.
same

then get on hrt n see if u still wanna kys

I have psoriasis and I never bothered getting it treated since I didn’t care about life and just was rotting away
When I did think of myself as trans and started making plans for transitioning and stuff it got a lot easier (not easy, just easier) to self improve other aspects
Not to push you one way or the other lol
If you think you’re not trans then just try to address the things that bother you without transitioning and if there’s still a gender shaped hole in your heart then maybe think about that
But also yeah for amab it’s relatively low risk to start hrt and cut it off if it’s not for you (risk mainly being developing some gyno you might regret later)
But as always do your research and caveat emptor

I wont ever pass though. its kinda hopeless. I just wanna stop worrying about this stuff if Im not trans

I've been on biologics and stuff, it can't be treated for me. some times it kinda clears up a bit on its own, but thats temporary and short amount of time.
idk about hrt though, like what if it is the case, but I never have any chance at passing, I feel like giving myself hope like that could be worse.

cis people dont really have brainworms ab these things but if its that hopeless then sure ig. when u do eventually resort to suicide to stop that head from worrying then maybe u should consider hrt just for fun

well thats the thing too. if I do end up going, I don't want to risk it and potentially have my family figure out I was on hrt.

but really, how can I know if I'm just overthinking things from my past? I feel like its kinda hard to tell since my memory is pretty bad.

lol

What if I got on hrt and still wanna kms but slightly less

>But also yeah for amab it’s relatively low risk to start hrt and cut it off if it’s not for you (risk mainly being developing some gyno you might regret later)
How long do you have to trail it?

lol i had the same thoughts, did the same thing, and realized just how massively improved my life was. i absolutely did wanna kms and i didn't think i would.
it wasn't really an intentional detransitiom but i used the circumstances as an excuse to try it cuz im an optimist
lesson is, it went away bc you treated it dawg
l2happy

whats funny about that?

I don't understand anything about what you said

youll find out on hrt if those thoughts actl mean anyth

if ur happier on hrt then ive got bad news

idk, I'm just kinda scared of hrt. like if I don't pass ever where I cant see myself as a woman but become visibly trans such that it makes my life worse socially, economically, etc, that my overall life would have gone down in quality.