I'm an afab butch and I'm literally fucking obsessed with a trans woman in my friend circle. I think about her night and day and dream about her when I'm asleep. I literally can't stop thinking about her, and when I do I just get so mad I can't take it. I fucking hate her... I hate that anyone would want to be female. I hate that she chooses to live as one, I had that everyone goes with it, I didn't get to choose I just have to merely exist as a woman. I'm jealous that she gets to be a woman, im jealous that she gets to be trans. I'm jealous of her tall amab body, im jealous that she has a feminine amab body, im jealous that she enjoys being femme. I hate that she's just sooo nice and sweet to everyone it makes me so mad. It makes me so angry that I have violent thoughts about her, I want to hit her, and beat her up, I want to scream at her that she'll never be like me but the truth is that im angry that ill never be like her. I'm not a violent person why does she make me feel these things? It just makes me angrier.
I fucking dare you not to reply with "least violent dyke" or some stupid shit like that too
Yeah but your reaction to her sounds like some insane combination of envy, resentment, and dysphoria
Brayden Murphy
>envy, resentment, and dysphoria for real: >I hate that anyone would want to be female. >I didn't get to choose >I just have to merely exist as a woman. >she gets to be a woman >im angry that ill never be like her OP might need some deep introspection to crack this mystery
William Sanchez
Sounds like simultaneously you want to fuck her brains out / have her rail you, as well as hating that she gets attention you don't for being female
Daniel James
being jealous of someone because of their transition isn't typical for cis people
Carson Richardson
you might be generically insane, sure, but having a permanent meltdown about the concept of femininity is pretty obvious. too bad you're in a self-destructive mood or you'd realize this (i assume you're in a self-destructive mood most of the time)
have you considered transitioning and fucking her?
Isaiah White
You didn't need to mention you're a woman, the retarded word salad made it obvious.
Lincoln Miller
He literally introduced himself as "afab butch"
Kevin Wood
butch still does not mean ftm
Luke Sanders
>be trans woman with mostly afab friend group >"gee I sure am glad that I'm accepted for who I am and nobody in my friend group weirdly pathologizes my existence" >meanwhile
Bentley James
>mostly afab friend group what could go wrong?
Xavier Anderson
well yeah. I hated and isolated myself for five years because of that afab drama shit that kept happening lol. being treated like a white """amab""" incel when you just wanted to be a chicana riot grrrl like everyone else, eventually you just stop caring what they think tho. I wanted to be a radfem but it basically required hating myself.
