Fucked up and threw myself into the deep end

>Be me
>19 year old boymoder in college
>One night i get really bad dysphoria probably caused by this site
>Anything sets me off, i truly feel awful, consider roping
>impulsively decide to come out over instagram to alleviate the dysphoria
>I change my name and pronouns to "Emma she/her"
>Keep in mind I haven't told any of my friends or extended family
>I have literally no female or lgbt friends
>Don't think about it until the next day
>Right when I get up everybody has seen it
>Everybody knows I'm trans, everybody from school, work, my family
>Flooded with messages of support
>People are calling me by my preferred name, even people I thought would be transphobic
>There's literally nothing that went wrong in doing this

I still feel extremely awkward even tho I have nothing to fear. Like everything went fine but I still feel really fucking nervous and anxious. I just want to disappear to the middle of the woods and live in a cave somewhere where nobody will bother me. How do I get over this? Move in day is in two weeks and everybody on campus knows i'm trans

WHY AM I STILL AFRAID?

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It's called shame. You gotta go through it. Don't resist.

i mean i can't really resist now i just wanna know when the shame goes away

You've done the second hardest part, now it's time for the hardest part
Being happy
Good luck anonette

It doesn't go away until you go through it. You're resisting some aspect. Why don't you want people to bother you? That's probably a key.

Which college I think I know you

That's so lucky! I'm so happy for you Emma :)

>Emma
God tier name. Good pick.

t. Emma Henrietta

can only imagine if you did this on terf island

you go to georgetown?

eventually being a woman will just be your life, the concept of being ashamed of it will feel totally alien to you

Oh no I'm in Florida

The way I thought of it was - you've thrown out an old normal, so everything's going to be weird for a while. But you're building a new normal- all you have to do is get comfortable and you'll be okay.

LMFAO user, this is literally how I came out too and it went perfectly, apart from with parents obviously.

how long have you been on hrt?

i came out (because people are nosy and searched my stuff) and everyone called me a retarded faggot and my dad disowned me

like 2 months

lol

same user lmao

should not have come out to anybody but close family/friends until you were ready to girlmode bro

Stop hanging on to male identity, it will go away faster. Either way it should go away within the next few months, at most a year if you really hang on to it.