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Pain thread
Nathaniel Adams
Gabriel Williams
>been in same "funk" since sophomore year of hs
>disliked at work bc of sperg mentality and dependence/constant need of reassurance
>constant cycle of family pretending to be supportive then turning their back on me
>gained 5 pounds due to using eating as a coping mechanism
>losing interest in my hobbies (bought the forest on steam today, a game i have been wanting for ages only for me to boot it up and immediately exit and uninstall)
>window for hrt to do anything is closing everyday and willpower to do anything about it is diminishing
>been living each day like a re-run of the day before it for the last 3 years and am dissociating more than ever
>still daydream about my old hs friend group that secretly hated me but stuck with me out of pity as they were the only thing close to friends i have had for a while
>now too scared to make friends as an adult because everyone in my life ends up ignoring me and my only form of social interaction is mindlessly replying to threads on Any Forums
Matthew Cooper
the other night I saw my mom for the first time in a while and she made me buy her McDonald's. It was highway robbery, this country has really gone downhill
Isaiah Jackson
i miss you so fucking much please come back for the love of god please i beg you i would do anything to be with you again please please please i promise to never do anything bad again please i promise im sorryi im sorry imsorryimsorryimsorry i love you i never stopped loving you i never will stop loving you i sorry imsorry simsorry im sorry plesae come back plase plesae please i try to tell myself that its over, that i dont love you anymore, that im over you but i know its all lies i know i love you i know that will never stop im sorry for everything i have done im so fucking sorry for the love of god i would do anything for a minute with you again please come back i need you i need you i need you i need you i need you no one else is the same as you it doesnt matter what they or i do all i wish for is you and that makes me want to fucking dieand scream all the fucking time its been months but you are still all that passes through my head i think about you all the fucking time like its a curse i love you i love you i love you like no one else in this world eercouldi loeyou please come back i elove you plealse
Carson Martinez
>meet hot guy at grocery store
>he smiles at me
>smile back
>asks me out for coffee
>we hit it off
>grab his hand under table
>place it against the front of my diaper
>he says that's sexy as long as there's no large diarrheas
>go back to my place
>brush empty beer cans off bed
>wheel grandma into kitchen and face her against wall
>he's already naked and hard on bed
>repeat "no large diarrhea" over and over in my head
>pull down diaper and bend over
>he puts his hard dick against my asshole
>without warning I make large diarrhea
>it sprays like pic related
>he screams and leaves
>cum hands free
>still lonely
David Stewart
>meet the most perfect guy ever
>good looking, my type
>we spend a lot of time together
>he even kisses me, cuddles, holds my hand in public
>I obviously fall for him but he only wants to be friends
>being just friends is fucking painful
>suffer because I don’t get to be his gf or spend time with him
>but I also would suffer if I spent time with him as just a friend
Everything fucking hurts, I’m doing my best to distract myself but he even appears in my dreams
Landon Moore
my life is shit. i have nothing nobody.
Ian Murphy
I'm ugly. But I'm proud of it, we can do the ugly people club, like, pride month for being ugly and all.
Alexander Richardson
God I wish someone would love me like that
Owen Rogers
Mom. For the last time. I'm coming back home for Thanksgiving
Ayden Johnson
>born male
>wish I was a girl/woman
>take estrogen for a year
>still a guy
yeah dude this shit fucking sucks big time
Wyatt Allen
same
Christian Rogers
haha relatable
Luke Moore
>giga depressed entire life, earliest thing I can remember is sobbing to my mum about how I can’t feel excitement anymore
>move away from home, transition, not exactly happy but existence is tolerable
>housemate gets these little rats, find them utterly delightful
>stubborn, curious, so full of personality
>research everything I can about them to make sure they are as happy and comfortable as possible
>decide to be spontaneous for once and get my own rats
>read a lot about breeders, many are just in it for quick money and raise them in awful conditions
>find a guy half an hour away and arrange to buy some lil babies
>sus af when I get there, selling out of his house won’t let me see where he’s keeping them etc.
>once he brings them out for me to see I just fall in love (pic rel is them)
>don’t want to support an unethical breeder but there’s no chance I’m leaving them
>they are so unused to people that if I even move in the same room as them they all hid
>sit outside cage for hours with treats, talking softly until they are used to me
> after a few months they are comfortable enough to interact with me, they lick my hand and beg to be let out every moment they can get
>never thought I could love something like this
>never thought something could love me
>do something dumb and one of them gets badly injured
>I knew she was dying, meds weren’t working idk why
>stayed up for as long as I could but eventually I passed out and when I woke she was gone
>sweet little tau, the first to crawl up my arm and lick my face
>she was so rigid when I found her
>not sure what happened honestly but my body just stopped functioning
>legs start giving out on way to and back from work
>not sleeping at night, slightest noise wakes me up
>thoughts don’t make sense, nearly crash car several times
>take a leave from my job, end up going back home because I can’t cook meals or even wash my own hair
will continue this for anyone who actually read this wall of text
David Lopez
My dysphoria has been so bad today. I’ve broken down crying multiple times. Actually just wish I was dead.
Ethan Smith
No, you really really don't
Nolan Barnes
I am not happy, I have never been happy and I don't know if I ever will be.
I'm going to therapy but honestly deep down I think I'm unfixable, I trip over the same stones over and over again and I don't learn anything.
I ruin every relationship I make, I let toxic people walk all over me, I always push away people who are actually good for me.
My family is dysfunctional and I feel powerless to improve our situation, I dropped out of college and honestly I don't know if I'm smart enough to go back, I'm looking for a job and that's my only hope but I keep getting distracted.
I just hope to find a job, start earning money, make and keep a good friendship with someone, and figure out what I want to study next year.
I'm afraid I'd somehow ruin all of that if I were to achieve it, of course.
Nicholas Roberts
iktf
Dylan Brown
Did your mom also learn to use the voice-to-text feature on her phone to replace her signature eight-minute rambling voicemails with impenetrable walls of unpunctuated text? (love you mom but for fuck's sake learn how to make a point)
Carson Cox
>he wants to treat you as he would treat a girlfriend
>he doesn't want you to be his girlfriend
Sounds like you're better off without him honestly, he's just leading you on.
Andrew Rogers
she's never coming back, you have to stop thinking about her and so do I
if you are reading this I hate you every part of me hates you I wish that I never met you and I hate that I wish we were still together I wish I died when I tried to take myself out but now I'm just left with permanent reminders of you I hate you I was so god damned unlucky to meet you
Adam Stewart
Gender dysphoria (I doubt any of you would understand or relate)