Welcome and if you have or are
>autistic
>adhd
>trans
>frenly
>have extremely niche hobbies or interests
>agp
You belong here with us
After some delay, we are back. And we stay up this time. And this time I don't screw up the thread subject.
What are you up to today /atg/?
I'm surprised I didn't screw up the subject again and put it in the name field.
To answer my own bland question, I'm working on an interface for my UI/UX class. I'm not really good at a lot of this but it is interesting. I have to build an interface for a mobile app. I don't really use mobile apps much or GUIs so sometimes its hard to care about the project but sometimes just working on something big where I can see some kind of finished product at the end is enough to keep me motivated (at least for now)
>autistic tranner general
This entire thread was BUILT TO BE HELD DOWN AND GANG RAPED BY LINES OF CHASERS
wha?
Where maddie? Where hippochan?
Where Haskell?
Page 9 hope bump
It is time for a monster I think
hihihi atg!
Today I took a long walk during the daytime which is unusual for me and I took lots of pictures of bugs. I also saw some hummingbirds. I was hoping to find some tomato hornworms, but I didn't have any luck... I did see lots of northern paper wasps though. I also saw some moles waddling around in the underbrush a few times while I was out.
I've been actually going outside much more often lately which is probably good since I'm usually a shut-in. Finding bugs is a good motivator. I took picrel yesterday and is a hummingbird clearwing moth. I've only seen one of these guys once before so it was really exciting to see one again!
why do chasers act like this
weird realization recently
>always been a bit of a loner introvert
>agoraphobic but much better than i was years ago
>used to be a big muscly guy with a beard that people thought was middle aged
>now a small fem boymoder that gets mistaken for a 16 year old or a girl now and people tease and are a lot more friendly with me
>at the same time people suddenly are a lot more honest and blunt with me i guess due to not being intimidated anymore
>people i have known for years as well as recent friends and coworkers are very unsubtle in their implications of what they think about me
>my long time friend talks down to me and refuses to take anything i say seriously even if its in line with things she seemingly used to trust me with or respect me with
>newer friend says i have some "quirks" and clearly cant pick up on certain social cues
>constantly misunderstanding people when it comes to jokes or serious statements, completely misinterpreting even the simplest of things
>not in stupid or slow way, just in a really specific and confusing way that only makes some sense after i explain it in depth repeatedly
>am extremely particular in specific like rituals i have to do in order and at specific times of the day in a sequence and if i get interupted i become distraught and feel off for a bit even if i start over or finish shortly after
and so on. Have I always been autistic or something and im only just realizing it now because people are only recently being more honest with me in certain contexts? after i stopped repressing and started hrt last year a lot of things became clearer to me in a lot of aspects and now i feel stupid for not realizing im like a meme caricature mocking actually autistic people and i have been in therapy for a while but its difficult to talk about stuff like this. i always feel like im misinterpreting or overthinking things im ashamed im "stealing valor" or something. sorry for the blog post im not good at being concise and i go on a lot
It's one guy going on a rape crusade in every thread, very cringe
to clarify im aware i have always been weird and like atypical in most ways but i have never necessarily thought specifically i was autistic or could be seen as an autist. not that its bad being autistic idk it just seems a lot more pinned down and specific, like theres general misery and sadness in response to something and then theres depression, and theres being a bit shy and socially awkward after being in covid isolation for months/years and then theres being on the autistic also cool spooky captcha was S8TAN
>being on the autistic
i guess i somehow jumbled up "being on the spectrum" and "being autistic" fuck sorry im gonna stop posting over and over im shitting up the thread my bad
Anyone else wish they could just go through life like a phantom? Never seen, never heard, never acknowledged.
I do not want to interact with others, they scare and confuse me. I dislike being around other people, I dislike other people perceiving me or thinking about me.
>I dislike other people perceiving me or thinking about me.
I feel this part at least. It makes me uncomfortable to go out in public lately. I was normally socially anxious before all the pandemic stuff and then if I went out it had to be after dark. Now I don't even want to go outside at night.
user I don't exactly know what to tell you but I think I'm in a similar situation where the isolation and me being on the autistic made it worse over time
I don't know anything about bugs but that moth looks really cool. I've never seen bugs with clear wings like that. I don't count flies because they are more like translucent wings to me. I wish I wasn't freaked out by bugs, it seems like a good motivator to go outside. On my night walks I used to see baby raccoons a lot
Also checked!
I don't know how to communicate with other people without them feeling confused or hurt by something I said. I feel so incapable of connecting with others. I think it'd be best if I just never spoke to anyone ever again.
I tend to just annoy them because everything I saw comes out stupid
Please tell my bf to drive to me and rape me senseless
Did you ever watch a movie called "The Big Short"?
The character played by christian bale seems like you say, rather intelligent guy in real life, who saw a lot of shit coming well in advance of the 2008 corporate bailout begathon.
Yeah it's a struggle.