I came out when I was still a youngshit. I did everything right. I was so compliant and it got me nothing. 2 years. 2 fucking years of "oh if you fix your eating disorder we can get you HRT." "If you make enough progress with this therapist we'll sign the consent forms."
Only for me to do what they told me and masculinize. It doesnt matter that I started at HRT. I can never unfuck my shoulders. I can never fix that I have no hips. I'm 19 month on hormones AND THIS IS ALL THE BREAST DEVELOPMENT I HAVE TO SHOW FOR IT. And its probably all Im ever going to have.
My parents ruined my life and I have no fucking recourse. I used to pass but I watched it slip away from me for years and now I dont. I passed better at 16 than after a year and a half of esteogen. I get misgendered every time I go outside, I have nothing, my parents arent even in my life anymore but the mark theyve put on me will never go away. I feel like Im some scorned being that has been cast out of gods grace to live as this fucking abomination.
I dont want to kill myself but my life is a living hell and I have no reason not to. What the fuck do I do
If I post an unsee will you be honest and tell me how over it is?
Benjamin Parker
I have no reason to be dishonest, but I also find a lot less people ugly than the usual person (to the point where for the longest time I couldn't understand how people could so easily rate others on a 10 point scale).
If it comes to how masculine you are i can judge that pretty objectively though
You look androgynous atm, most cishets would buy that you are cis if you voice-train well. You are clockable to those familiar with MtFs, but most cis people dont know in cases like yours
t. Cis and have cis friends
Ryder Bell
okay, a few things:
1) style your eyebrows 2) take better care of your hair
your biggest problem is the very pronounced brow, which can be easily taken care of in the future with ffs.
when it comes to body-passing, that requires good style and making sure you don't point to masculine parts.
you have it better than a lot of tranners i have seen. if you start HRT post 18 there's like an 80% chance you'll need ffs to stealth, so this is nothing unusual, but after that you'll be more than fine.
I used to stealth 2 years ago when I was pre HRT. But now its not even a matter of someone correcting themself. Some people assume Im a cis man. I think its intentional but idk. I get clocked every day and its destroying me
Jack White
puberty is a natural process every normal person throughout history has experienced. your body didn't destroy itself lol, it did what it was supposed to do. embrace what you actually are instead of what you were groomed into becoming, live a healthy real life not influenced by your online fantasies.
Aaron Ward
I used to pass at 16 and they'd say is that a girl? not now.. >hurr durr durr what is dysphoria
Camden Brown
Ive taken better care of myself and it didnt help much. It just gets worse and worse regardless of effort. Also someone stole all my clothes so now I have like 2 pants and 3 shirts
Matthew Barnes
Hey look a tourist!
Asher Jones
The unsee was face, maybe it's your body proportions and your voice? Your face is sort of in a grey area so everything else matters a lot, including whether you have fem mannerisms. Like the other user said though, FFS will help considerably and you wouldnt have to worry as much about the little things anymore. In the meantime, learn makeup and fashion, it can unironically help in edge cases.
Ian Wood
idk their face isn't passing and looks amab
Owen Garcia
I look similar to OP and they really do
Jackson Reed
>hurr durr durr what is dysphoria something that doesn't exist. >what is puberty something real that every healthy sane individual experiences
Connor Rodriguez
nobody respond to this tard
Anthony Taylor
this is the sort of spacing you use in most word-processors when writing a book, are you having an aneurysm newfag?
lmao, you'll go far with that lack of motivation. at least exercise and voice-train for future you if you don't care about your current self.
Ive been doing some degree of voice training since I was 13. Thats why I cant resonate like a cis dude. Also this is what I looked like just shy of a year on HRT. It feels like it doesnt matter what I do. People still clock me
