>be me, 24y/o boy/manmoder, on HRT for a few years >barely remember my childhood >one if my first memories ever is of hating my genitals >remember being in the bath thinking “hmm that stuff is weird, maybe I can cut it off someday >be in 2nd grade >learn that it hurts when guys get kicked there but not girls >seems unfair >cry >now an adult >massive ballbusting fetish, it’s literally the only thing I can get off to >still have horrible dysphoria >absolutely hate having stuff down there >want to get an orchiectomy so badly to feel relief from the dysphoria >feel like I can’t get my balls removed because my hatred of them is now sexualized >legitimately can’t cum without my balls being crushed, or fantasizing about the times that I’ve been kicked in the balls >super embarrassed by this >girlfriend refuses to hurt me so every few months I pay a dominatrix to kick me down there as hard as she can >it’s awful and it hurts so much but it’s my only turnon >always want to get the orchiectomy, except for when I’m turned on, because then I realize that I have to keep them so I can be hurt there >seen multiple qualified sex therapists, they don’t know what to tell me >it’s impossible to get rid of a fetish like this that’s so deeply ingrained >never had an orgasm without fantasizing about getting kicked in the balls >have a collection of custom ballbusting porn that I’ve spent over a thousand dollars on >sad all the time because I don’t want to have balls
I'm into humiliation/degradation but cbt stuff is revolting to me
Nolan Nelson
>massive ballbusting fetish you know i'm trying to come up with a joke to be all like "ah i'm just bustin ya balls" but i'm not funny enough to do it
Lucas Taylor
Just get your balls removed, you'll learn to live without, sound like ballbusting is just a cope you have right now for them
James Thompson
Yeah but my sex therapists tell me that fetishes like this never go away. I think I might get them removed, but it’s gonna suck because l’ll never be able to engage in my favorite sexual fantasy again.
Cooper Williams
I know, I’d be laughing at it too if I weren’t so upset about the dysphoria aspect. My dream job is, like, the guy that they kick in womens self defense classes. Except I wouldn’t be wearing a cup.
Leo Hall
lmao these sissy-style captions are weird
I think you should just have one last hurrah, get someone to obliterate the balls entirely and accept this the ultimate fulfillment of your fetish is the fitting end.
Ayden Bennett
They make fake balls for men who have to get their balls removed because of cancer. You could go that route so that you stop producing testosterone but can still get kicked in the balls.
William Moore
I’ve considered this. But I don’t want them to put me in the psych ward when I show up to the ER with ruptured testicles. Or what if the pain is so bad it traumatized me or something? How would I even find a woman to do this? She could probably get in legal trouble for it.
Then I would still have dysphoria because my crotch wouldn’t be flat. Also it wouldn’t be hot if it doesn’t hurt. The pain is like the main aspect of the fetish.
