Be me

>be me
>always have been extremely twinky
>really shit childhood, only started receiving compliments after 15, online, due to my body
>as I grow older I start getting crazy about hairloss, body hair, etc
>checked my hairline and head (for bald spots) multiple times a day, took pics of my chest to check for hair
>eventually cave in and decide to take hrt

>be me now, "hrt femboy"
>57 days on E, 73 days on cypro
>adamant that im not a trans
>friend tells me to read Boku Girl
>start reading, I start feeling strange
>almost start crying
>stop reading and stay in bed all day brooding

Am I trans if I would totally like to be transformed into a real woman, but accept being a man since that's not possible?

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you already know the answer

but I dont mind being a man!

then stop taking female sex hormones and be a fucking man.
One day you'll grow up to be almost as smart as the other adults and you'll realize how pathetic and transparent your zoomer "femboy" cope was; until then try actually being a man and see how you feel

im terrified of aging like a man

I'm betting in a couple months you'll be happy to see your boobs are getting bigger and you'll wish you could have been born a girl, faggot

>I dont mind being a man!
>im terrified of aging like a man
it's either one or the other.
Also female sex hormones don't help with that, they make you a tranny. If you don't wanna age as a man, don't drink/smoke and use sunscreen.

Ask your parents for money and go to therapy, maybe it will help you emotionally mature a bit?

you have all the time in the world to figure out your gender
if you want the psychical and metal effects of hrt you should keep taking it
there's no replacement.

>female sex hormones don't help with that
Get a load of this retard.

I feel much better on HRT; I cry more, but I feel great after

the breasts are the only thing that bother me a bit, but I don't mind them

do you remember being feminine as a child? I'm on the same bout as you, at least in the not wanting to age like a man part

so I have that to look forward to, sorry for baiting you a bit.
i genuinely believe what I said, though.
it's just a different direction to take your body in, whether you turn out to be trans or not.

I don't remember much of my childhood, just that I was very different compared to now, very silent, crying a lot for no reason, never wanted to play

now I'm normal I guess, I overcompensate a lot by being hypermasculine irl (behaviour wise) so im not like that anymore

the desires to start hrt came at 15/16

It sounds like you're trans then to me but it doesn't matter. Stick on HRT and see how you feel, it will prevent aging as a man (and it is the single most effective way to prevent male pattern baldness!)

You're gonna have to do a lot of work if you've already started growing facial and body hair, but if it's not that bad do not get off HRT or it will grow and it will cost a lot of money and pain and time to remove a thick beard.

Be a good girl and transistion

I don't have chest hair and I have little to no facial hair but have really bad self esteem, hrt hasn't helped yet in that regard...

>I don't remember much of my childhood
Uh oh... That's pretty common among tranners...

i actually remember next to nothing, its sad :(

>Breasts bother me
>I don't mind them
???

Not remembering childhood well doesn't always mean that someone got sexually diddled. I've largely dissociated from my childhood and have very fuzzy memory of it but I know for a fact I wasn't molested or anything.

You're textbook trans, but that's okay user.

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I hated the thought of having them pre HRT, but now that the shape is already there (just no big) and that the nipples are puffy i dont mind...

really dont wanna be trans though

You aren't "accepting being a real man" though. You are on E and crying over the thought of being a man. Just accept that you are trans. You can do the whole HRT femboy thing for a while to ease into it but trooning out is definitely your best hope. If the thought of stopping E, getting hairy and looking more and more manly as you age terrifies you, you need to fucking avoid it. Being trans can suck ass but the alternative is you morphing into something you can't stand.

I didn't even read the OP
Please anons post more images like this, casually trans manga/anime with small hrt booba

It won't, that's something you gotta work on yourself. Preventing facial and chest hair growth, preventing baldness, growing small breasts, preventing other effects of virilization, and changing some fat distribution is all HRT really does, better effect the younger you are. Self-image and self-esteem you gotta work on yourself, you gotta put work into your goals and how you wanna look overall, HRT works as a preventative and mildly feminizing measure but it's not the be-all and end-all here.

You have two choices, be trans or be a man. You can HRT femboy I guess but that has a limited lifespan and you will either need to graduate and get off E and become a full man or you will need to just bite the bullet and troon. You aren't going to a HRT femboy at age 30, are you? That would be much sadder than just being trans.

find a man that will comfort and accept you no matter what.

They can always say they're non-binary if they live in a liberal hellhole, but honestly you get better results just by going the "I wanna be a girl" trans route. SRS is optional in a lot of places now, remember that.

the thoughts of being off HRT makes me wanna kill myself, it's the first months of my life where I don't check compulsively my hair, or wake up crying because I dreamt of havint chest hair

>really dont wanna be trans though
No one does. It sucks, a lot, but it's not something you can choose.

Glad you are doing well. Growing up under pressure sucks and turns out bad almost always.

this poster is incredibly rarted
op do what makes you happy
>wanna pop e
>don't wanna be a girl
>just pop e and be a guy
what's so hard to understand
>and then if you change ur mind
that's okay too