drinking to make the day go faster
wish i had weed, friends or acid to help : ')
any ideas to quickly skip over 2 weeks of hell? drinking alone is sad as hell
Alcohol
Liam Jackson
Gavin Rogers
how many dall-e generations of this german boy in a green uniform do you have
Daniel Reyes
meditate, masturbate, whatever you want, be productive probably
Ethan White
0, i don't have any boys in my folder
too paralyzed to be productive, need meds from psychiatrists. mediation never worked for me because i just fell asleep. my libido is low af
Adrian Roberts
can you focus enough to read, or watch something? when i'm paralyzed like that i can never watch anything, but i can usually read. it helps make time go by without having to act or have any volition at all
Nolan Reed
i dont know, hard.
sometimes games are fun, sometimes watching passes time, most times sad and crying.
reading is really hardd these days. i used to read a bunch but it's really hard
Kayden Allen
you can buy acid extremely easy over the clearnet bro.
Bentley Roberts
wait can you? ive bought salvia, but i didnt realise that something as contropled as acid was easy too
Landon Cooper
yeah, but i'm like retarded
id be the one of 2 people of all time caught buying that shit
Cooper Rivera
acid is most likely the single easiest controlled substance to buy over the clearnet both in terms of finding it and in terms of stealth because its literally just paper
Jordan Thomas
wish i had friends to pay to do this shit, because im way too fucking paranoid to a n extreme degree to do it myself
Hudson Edwards
crypto is streamlined as shit, there are a plethora of apps you can get on your phone where you can turn fiat into crypto in minutes.
Anyway I love alcohol too. I wanted to quit drinking but then I saw my face in the mirror and immediately understood that I had to get drunk today kek.
Jordan Brown
i get crypto, but 99% of crypto is all tracked these days, except shit like monero. im really afraid of something being deliver to some address i decide like a po box that's tied to me
Jaxson Diaz
i hope you can find something that helps you pass time and doesn't make you cry.
when i have a hard time reading i sometimes read fanfiction because it's easier for my brain to start it. have you tried reading any tanya the evil fanfiction, or fanfiction for other things you like? this is only if you think you might want to read, it sounded like you're sad you can't read but i might be wrong. it's better than video at
replacing a stream of thoughts with something else but that might be bad longterm anyway.
also depending on where you live, delta 8 gummies might be legal, which are weed gummies but seem mostly better to me. there's non gummy forms too but my lungs are sensitive so i've only had it in its gummy version
James Collins
>have you tried reading any tanya the evil fanfiction
in the past i almost finishe dwriting a book inspired by it (completely standalone though, not based on this shit, plus like an actual book that ispent time workshopping and making multiple drafts, but depression made it stopp), but that required a lot of mental energy i don't have
>also depending on where you live
poland, i 've done a very shallow lookup before and i don't think i have access to it. anyone know ifi could drive to a closeby country to get them? they were nice to try out when i was in the us
Jordan Baker
If it makes you feel any better I've sent bank transfers for research chemicals kek.
By the way I'm talking about research chemicals. It wouldn't be LSD25 (acid, LSD), it'd be 1p-lsd or 1cp-lsd, both of which are direct analogs of LSD25, as once metabolised it turns into regular acid and the effects are the exact same. So it'd most likely be more of a legal grey area since you're dealing with research chems and not, technically, 'real acid.'
Dylan Mitchell
i'd neeed to do so much reasearch aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Ryder James
Everyone else is aware of this which is why all drugs nowadays can only be bought with Monero
Dylan Anderson
just buy some, its really easy and, for lsd specifically, you can tell if its fake really fast.
if it tastes weird(or tastes anything other than paper) its bad.
i'd buy some rn but i don't have any way to transfer money to crypto atm
Kayden Lewis
i think im genuinely too paranoid to ever do it'
one day whenim not as mentally ill i'll try, but these days if i tried, i think i'd get a heart attack thinking about getting imprisoned or some shit. i know it's unlikely but my paranoia is really extreme
wish i had frends
Josiah Lopez
Study something new. New languages, historical moment, something you always was curious about.
Henry Miller
user i have extreme mental illness, the only reason i'm not in the psych ward is be cause of intense paranoia, i'm not functional
Leo Hernandez
Where do you live lol. In my country you can buy this shit on the clearnet DOMESTIC so there's 0 fucking risk.
By the way you are not responsible for what is delivered to your mailbox. If ever questioned just deny having any knowledge of it. You dont need to use your real name to even get the package although that can sometimes unecessarily complicate it if the name on the package and the name on file at the address is not congruent.
Isaiah Turner
i dont know, going outside already scares me to death, this feels like too much. i know im retarded, but im too scared of the consequences, even if they're really unlikely
Isaac Wright
Why are you trying to skip through 2 weeks?
I'm gonna get drunk today and probably relapse on xanax as well personally. I hate my body so much I'm just gonna be high as much as possible and die at 35 of failed liver.
Jayden Reyes
that's when psychiatrist visit and i can get meds, right now its hell
Ryan Kelly
like says, you are not responsible for anything in your mail. you can claim ignorance.
>wish i had frends
where you from? if you get the money i'd literally buy it if you want
but actually, more importantly,
>user i have extreme mental illness, the only reason i'm not in the psych ward is be cause of intense paranoia, i'm not functional
lsd with paranoia sounds like a very bad mix.
when you reach moments of complete dissolution of yourself, cant remember who you are or why your in this funky state, you need to be able to trust the past-you with their judgement.
i've had times where i was in that exact mindset and have to remind myself "this is who i am, i trust myself and my research, i understand this state is only temporary"