0-18 years old, think I'm 100% straight

>0-18 years old, think I'm 100% straight
>around 18-19, start noticing dicks more in porn
>19-21, slowly realize that I'm bi, 99% into women infatuated with the idea of sucking dick. frequently jerk off to just dicks, and fantasizing about sucking them
>just moved to new city, figure I should give it a try, find a guy on grindr with a nice dick. make it clear that this is my first time and I'm just looking to blow him, nothing else, don't want him to do anything to me
>he comes over, pulls up in an obnoxiously large and loud truck, surely waking the whole neighbourhood and ruining any hope I had of discretion
>clearly significantly older than the 35 and fatter than the "stocky" he purported to be
>take him to my room, he takes his cargo shorts off and lays on my bed. his cock is nice, 6ish inches, decently thick, uncut, well-shaven
>start sucking him. immediately realize that I'm not aroused at all, but keep going. he keeps trying to push my head down further, even as I'm clearly choking (intact gag reflex). have to keep pushing against it
>he starts getting handsy, grabbing at my chest and ass. not into it but figure if it helps him cum quicker, whatever.
>tries to grab my dick, I tell him I'm not interested. mumbles "ok" and he goes back to my chest and ass. tries grabbing it again a minute later, swat his hand away
>go for what felt like another 30 minutes, probably only really 5
>he cums without warning. didn't really taste like anything, spit it out
>mutters "thanks" and leaves

It wasn't the most unpleasant experience of my life, but I'm certainly not happy that I'll have to remember it for the rest of my life. Is this just the grindr experience, or am I a straightoid in denial?

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user... you're supposed to experiment with twinks who have a str8 fetish ;-;

grindr pickings were slim and I didn't have time to wait to set something up- roommates are out for the night, otherwise there's almost always someone else here.

idk maybe I'll try again, try to find someone who is at least ok to look at. a qt twink would be nice.

good luck ;______;

does boysmell turn you on?

>grindr
That was your mistake.

I'm not sure I really know what that means. What I'll say is that I have never been particularly attracted to or turned on by any physical aspects of masculinity other than cocks. I didn't think I cared about what the guy looked like at all besides his cock, but maybe that isn't as much the case as I thought.

he didn't really smell like anything at all, in any event. which is far from the worst possibility, I suppose.

is there a better way to quickly and easily find men for anonymous gay sex?

>is there a better way to quickly and easily find men for anonymous gay sex?
Go to your local cruising spot.

OP how many women have you slept with and how often do you watch porn?

>not into masculinity in any form than dicks
maybe try a gloryhole then