Now my memory is bad due to some illness and I only recall being feminine as a child but I do not recall actual thoughts of thinking I was a woman or wanting to be a woman.
I only recall playing or customizing my characters to be women in videogames and playing as them and then pretending to be a woman in those games. Like I would interact with other players and act as if I was a woman. I don't recall why I did that I don't recall my intentions or thought patterns from back then. I would do it in all the games that allowed me to. Perhaps it was because I wanted to be a woman, anyhow that was when I was like either 12, 13 or 14 so it wasn't really chilhood I was a teen then.
So anyhow should I just repress? I probably memed myself into wanting to be a girl though the internet, besides they will probably require some evaluation/test if you want to start HRT or change name and they will probably ask about childhood memories and I probably won't pass that. I do have genuine gender dysphoria idk how I will cope with that when im not allowed to transition.
I don't recall any childhood memories of me wanting to be a girl. Should I repress?
pretty sure youre trans. you perfectly described it plus doubt is really common, and diy shouldnt need a test
even if u do a test you wont fail it so yeah
repression is cringe + yolo
Who the fuck cares if you were trans in your childhood. Scared of evaluation? Just lie to them. I did and everything went great.
>Just lie to them. I did
WHat exactly did you lie about?
And what kind of medical specialist evaluated you and what did they ask?
>I don't recall any childhood memories of me wanting to be a girl.
That's normal. You hadn't gone through puberty yet.
Also
>I only recall being feminine as a child
>I only recall playing or customizing my characters to be women in videogames
>and then pretending to be a woman in those games
user...
>pretty sure youre trans
I could be, but I don't know if medical professionals will see me as trans even though I have gender dysphoria and thus I wont be allowed to change my name, or be prescribed HRT by them, which by the way is much safer than DIY hrt
I live in a shithole so my experience can be different from what will happen to you,
I saw a psychiatrist, they were asking me a lot of questions, related and unrelated to me being trans.
I lied about having dysphoria since I was 10 and the way I was answering questions made my story really convincing. If I weren't lying and not saying some things I think it would take me longer to get diagnosed.
It's okay to lie to get what you want.
Personally, I couldn't care less if i wasn't allowed to change my name and such, but its suprisingly easy to convince them, just dont say 'no im actually cis' or something, the only hard part is waiting forever, and you should try diy before you get prescribed before its too late
>user...
maybe I am trans but, being fem as a child isnt idicative of being trans. Perhaps I was just gender nonconforming. Only desiring to be a woman is indicative of being trans.
and the pretending to be a girl in games happened when I was a teen maybe even a little earlier than that, i dont know if that is considered childhood.
>It's okay to lie to get what you want.
I agree with you but I feel like by lying I am preventing them for giving me the correct help I need. though I will probably still lie
>Personally, I couldn't care less if i wasn't allowed to change my name and such
I wish I didn't either. but my gender dysphoria is too strong. I do want to try diy but I live with my parents and they do not seem to be supportive of LGBT people, so I cannot have the DIY delivered to my address since my parents could find the package, and I don't have any friends either so I cant have it delivered to their house. I'm fucked, truly fucked.
>by lying I am preventing them for giving me the correct help I need
Well if you're sure you want to transition lying would only help you
just transition you idiot.
you have gender dysphoria, you want to be a girl, you were a girl when allowed to.
I worry they wont see me as trans and will deny me trans resources such as being able to change name or to get on HRT
>I worry they wont see me as trans and will deny me trans resources
Go DIY honestly, its usually cheaper and safer in the long run since you can stockpile your meds in case anything happens like a local shortage or something of that nature
>such as being able to change name
What country are you in? If your in the US you should be able to change your name with ease, its basically just a notarized form and not really associated with the other trans stuff like getting on HRT
>Go DIY honestly
see>I do want to try diy but I live with my parents and they do not seem to be supportive of LGBT people, so I cannot have the DIY delivered to my address since my parents could find the package, and I don't have any friends either so I cant have it delivered to their house. I'm fucked, truly fucked.
What should I do?
yes
>I only recall playing or customizing my characters to be women in videogames and playing as them and then pretending to be a woman in those games. Like I would interact with other players and act as if I was a woman.
Classic trans (AGP) signs.
>anyhow that was when I was like either 12, 13 or 14 so it wasn't really chilhood I was a teen then.
That's normal onset age for AGP, although it can happen younger or only be noticed later.
Learn about gatekeeping and gender therapy in your country. If gatekeeping is common or any therapist/professional asks you gatekeeping questions about childhood dysphoria, just make it up and say what you need to say to get approved. If you're in the US, use informed consent. If necessary, order DIY HRT.
>gatekeeping
This is a thing?
also I don't think I'm agp since I only like men or trannies
Gatekeeping is when the doctors refuse to let you transition, typically because they don't think you're "trans enough"
But it should be your decision, not theirs.
AGPs can like men, it's called meta-attraction. Liking trannies is called GAMP and it's especially common for AGPs.
So what is GAMP to be exact? I've seen the term before but nobody really elaborated on the definition.
This gatekeeping, how common is it?