You all are not real. You don't exist. Or maybe I don't exist.
My head hurts a little.
I don't want to be alone.
Why are you alone?
I.. I'm scared of other people.
I always make lives of people I talk to worse.
I hate myself and it makes me want to isolate myself.
Why do you hate myself?
...
I don't know.
I hate everything about me, but I don't know why.
I have low self-esteem.
Why?
I don't want to talk about it.
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.
.
I don't want to be alone.
I will always be alone.
Why?
Because I won't try to make friends.
You can't live like this forever.
I won't. I will kill myself in a few months.
Why?
Because I don't want to live.
Why?
There is nothing good about life.
Ask for help.
I don't want to.
Why?
Because..
Because I don't want to live.
You will want to.
I don't want to want to.
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.
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You all are not real. You don't exist. Or maybe I don't exist
you will want to
>NPC post
ironic.
I don't want to want to tho
most straightforwardly,
i ideate suicidally.
these words are my 'fetish',
here used to embellish my ideation,
a fixation on how my own death might come to pass.
yet my life is kept.
i don't use the word fetish in a sexual sense here,
but rather to evoke ideation as an obsession.
i (want to feel like i) have control over my life.
i can live if i please,
yet, still, i could take my life
in my mind
over and over again
ty this was nice to read and i like your picture
i wish i could help
right now you do not
but is the future not worth hoping for?
Sewerslvt please cvm back
No, and I don't want to have a future.
Are those lyrics?
Those are my thoughts
why not
would a future where you're happy not be infinitely better than your current situation?
I don't want to be happy
lmao ok schizo
Would you believe me to exist if I recorded a long, exasperated sigh of mine.
why?
>nut calling people schizo
You probably exist, don't record, it's just that it's weird to think about it. People on here have lives and talk about them and stuff, while I don't really have a life.
Because I hate myself.
i dont know what that means so you cant offend me idiot
you may not be schizophrenic
but you sure are nutty
i see
i don't like myself either, but that's no reason for me to not chase a better life
likewise, you deserve something better than what you have right now
i love you peanut
I deserve to die.
You're down the rabbit hole big time, user.
Self isolation is not good for you, and your negative self image will only ever add baggage. You're not beyond fixing, but getting better will fucking suck.
i doubt that
what have you done to warrant your death?
I won't try to get better myself.
I don't have anyone who would force me to get better.
I won't get better.
I haven't done anything that you will agree is bad enough to deserve to die. Do I need a reason to deserve to die? I just do.
Maybe I'm in a different reality than everyone else, in a different world or something.
It is sad if you really don't have anyone. Are you sure of it? ...Don't you want to be happy? Wouldn't it be better to not feel like you don't deserve it?
i think you need a reason
to die just because you can would be too sad