-Grow up a weird lonely boy who seems to be lost in books all by himself, no friends at all, not like the hsts kids -Just grow up confused as to why you're not normal like the other boys, but also not "LGBT" either, theyre actually legitimate unlike you -Hate yourself a lot for being a freak (most of your life will be spent thinking this in your head whenever there's dead air) -Lose years of your life lost in obscure niche fetish manga about awkward boys like yourself getting turned into pretty girls who gradually, after a while of adjustment and getting over the shame of it, start to have female friends, and get treated like a daughter by her parents, and even get a girlfriend or boyfriend and have lots of sex as a girl -Cry tears into your pillow in the morning after you dream about being a girl while telling yourself "It's just my AGP tricking my brain into thinking I'm sad about not being a girl, it's just the fetish trying to brainwash me into thinking I have dysphoria!" -Feel so terrified to display or express any kind of femininity in public or even in private due to 1) strict parents enforcing gender roles 2) religious divine punishment and 3) self-disgust, there's no way a masculine pathetic nerd like you could ever be feminine -Spend years reading transgender testimonials online hunting frantically for any signs that you might be legitimately trans too, only to always feel like it's never enough because you masturbate and trannies never masturbate -Get addicted to losing yourself deeper and deeper into fantasies and erotic fiction and fetishes about becoming a mindless slave because normal life doesn't feel worth living anymore and you know there's no way out, you can't live as a boy and you can't transition to a girl, you begin making suicide plans for when you're 30 -You eventually transition at age 29 because you chicken out, it goes miserably, and yet - somehow - you're still happier on HRT, despite not being trans
Look at the way young thug dresses honestly the words are interchangeable
Jayden Morgan
It is unironically heartbreaking. AGPs who transition in adolescence can be just as pretty as HSTS who do it at the same age. We also are more likely to be medically gatekept and denied transition by our own parents because they could never see the signs before. I was never a particularly feminine boy, but when I got to college, I immediately became obsessed with crossdressing and makeup because it made me insanely euphoric. Sure, it started out as a fetish, but I'm now able to live comfortably in girlmode full-time without being stupid horny all the time thanks to chemical castration.
Juan Walker
How does that work if you were also an anorexic gold star gay twink?
Also with the colorary that excessive vanity over effeminate good looks compelled you to anorexia it up to slow puberty and then use antiandrogens before end of teens
Henry Cruz
This feels like a cheap shot and described me perfectly. I'm at the end where I should have transitioned but still haven't because too scared.
Luis Morris
I wasn't anorexic but I was always underweight and underdeveloped and basically twink physique spend a lot of my later teens and early 20s trapping on omegle (without even needing to crossdress) I thought that would be enough to stave off the obsessive desires for transitioning but it wasn't...
Xavier Green
You should have cheated to keep your looks. This is why people encouraging hrt femboys is right and just
James Cook
I did! Well many years later...thankfully didn't masculine much, and I pass now Missed out on my entire youth though drowning in copes and repression, "agp freaks like me shouldn't be allowed to transition" etc
Luke Lee
I think I basically tricked myself into thinking I was AGP and that it was "just a fetish"... really didn't work honestly, I still want to be a girl and have a boyfriend. Maybe I'll end up transitioning this year, I'm almost considering killing myself if I don't do it.
blanch and lawrence say we're all narcissistic exhibitionists and liars
Adrian Myers
Maybe, but it will also make my life more difficult and I don't think I could handle that. Plus I don't want to be a forever alone hon.
Eli Hill
Where exactly? >Lawrence Don't care what they have to say.
Tyler Brooks
At this point I honestly just should... I hate this so much and I hate myself for being like this. I've felt like this since I was a little kid and it never went away. Nothing makes it go away, I've tried. I'm just so fucking miserable... I spent so long trying to justify it away or ignore it, and I've felt this way since I was a little kid. It's the main reason why I've been addicted to opioids for most of the last decade, because they nuke testosterone levels (which I absolutely do not want more of, it feels like poison) and they soften the edges of feeling this way. I almost don't even care if it ruins my life anymore, I can't take much more of this. I'm probably just going to do it soon before I totally lose it. My only real concern anymore is if I'd pass, but I think I have a decent shot, and I think if not then FFS could fix it.
Jose Long
lil agp
Justin Harris
true desu based, glad u made it! give yourself this chance user, repression is just self-harm. i wish you luck in your transition
Zachary Torres
>because it made me insanely euphoric >still euphoric without the horny >live comfortably in girlmode full-time without being stupid horny all the time
Then it was gender euphoria and femininity euphoria, and now you just have gender euphoria.
It really does feel like self-harm, it's agonizing to live this way. I've been able to mostly forget about it for good chunks of time but it's always at least lingered. I keep second guessing myself too, but if the idea of becoming any more masculine disgusts me, I feel content thinking about the effects of HRT, and if I had a button I could press to become female I'd 100% press it, I'd say it's honestly pretty clear.
