manmoder general
what keeps you going user?
manmoder general
what keeps you going user?
Nothing really
I grew tiddy and I look and feel softer, it's not a lot but it's enough to keep me goiong
hate women
maybe you'll live long enough to see super-science that can just grow you less hideous bodies
honestly it's a whole new face and skull I would need to grow... my body is doing better these days and I'm happy with it
June said I look like a man, but he jerks off to my face because it’s “girlmode” even though I’m an ugly man and will never pass. And he lives as a AFAB person.
Got my social security name changed yesterday.
When I showed up they said “you must be (male name). I want to kms. I wish I never changed my name on my drivers license.
fucked up and confessed to a close friend that I have feelings for them.
Idk why I'd ruin a friendship like that
inertia.
*hug*
hatred
it's getting increasingly awkward and funny to show people my old disheveled serial killer ID photo when buying alcohol
towards what?
Let's see
I was joking btw, I never jerk off.
Everyone. I will succeee out of spite
self hatred. if I think I deserve to suffer like this I won't end it prematurely
my therapist told me the "free" facial hair removal really have ended. now i have 1/2 my original beard density and just look strange, well, stranger.
that's enough to kill myself over - sure i can pay to do it myself but that would mean ffs now is 6-7 years away.
2nd
y u hate me :(
how did they react
okay. nothing would ever come of it though, I'm way too broken emotionally and mentally for a relationship. I feel bad for making a good friendship awkward.
“Friend” sits down next to other “friend” at lunch. Shows her her phone and talks. Ignores me.
Later I tell “friend” hey she didn’t say anything to me. “ it’s because you don’t sit next to her” I told her I do.
I told her it’s because she’s female and has female privilege another lady hears and says who cares people accept you for who you are.
>what keeps you going user?
i guess there's still some hope despite every bit of common sense telling me it's over
there's some amount of sunken cost fallacy at play too. i've already grown tits so i can't really go back to normal even if i wanted to
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!
trying to figure out how to live on my own and estimating how much money i could save for various transition related things and the future is just so fucking bleak