>bald by the time i was 18
>wigs give me sensory issues
>very masc face and always looked +10 years older than my actual age
>now 24 and realized transition is right for me, repped for so long bc of how much puberty destroyed me
>looks like an old, bald, hairy monkey
i think im kinda tired man…i never got the chance to have a normal childhood due to medical issues, was socially isolated for most of college bc of anxiety over my hair, and still a virgin at my age bc im ugly and anxious and a little dysphoric
i decided to put all my energy into work to fill that void and it paid off. I now make (pretax) somewhere around 320k per year. it didnt fill the void though
i could spend all that money on fixing my flaws, but whats the point? by the time im done at 26/27, best case ill have missed the best times of my life and be forced to settle for people who probably dont consider me as much more than a hole. worst case? i look like an uncanny freak
to that note, i am ending it. ive gone to therapy, tried drugs, and still believe thats the best outcome for me. its the only outcome that doesnt make me feel sick to my stomach
ive come to peace with it, and will spend the next year of my life preparing and hope to die by the end of 2023. id like to meet up with old friends, travel a bit, and experience a few psychedelics.
but most importantly, i want to do something with my money. i have a fair bit of savings for my yearly preparation, but want to spend the remaining yearly income on good things that help trans people
does anybody have organizations/people that are especially in need, which are trans related (ideally mtf)? to spread it around, i likely will not spend more than 4k in any given donation, and will donate once every 2 weeks (id like to be around to see the good that it does)
not bait not larp etc, genuinely serious
