Why am i still so fucking unhappy after transition

why am i still so fucking unhappy after transition
i started passing but i've totally given up any effort to presenting female, i haven't even shaved (my body, i dont rlly grow facial hair) in months
im in college for a major i'm not enjoying that is probably not employable, and there's is absolutely no fucking career I want to spend my life working at
i just want to fuck around and work on my passions. none of my interests are monetizable nor am I good enough to make them so

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you need a man

What is your passion, user?

babe it sounds like you're just depressed atm. i mean you can shave or not shave if you want to but most people who ignore that stuff for a really long time are just depressed

i dont mean to give you the same advice as anyone else but it sounds like you just need a new perspective or something--a new job or someone to love or friends or to really throw yourself into your passions

congratulations on passing. being a girl isnt really going to be the perfect solution for most of us but try to take comfort in the fact that youre past the worst of it

Internet addiction, video game and anime

>emo rei
I want to be her so bad

You need a husband no woman's life is fulfilled till they get married and have a family

>tfw no shut-in gf
Pain.

eh. i'm bi, but I kind of prefer women. probably. I don't date or fuck anyone.
I like to draw a bit (even though I'm terrible at it) I've always liked creative stuff, writing, designing, games. Also interested in politics/policy, and have always been somewhat into computers and tech.
Yeah I'm depressed. I have been for like 6 or 10 years. I don't really know what to do about it. I'm not really convinced on therapy, I went briefly and didn't see it as helpful.
I don't really have any friends or someone to love or anything, I've kind of given up on meeting people, I started college trying to be more confident and personable than I naturally am and I still don't know anyone.
i don't wanna serve some fuckin man

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>i don't wanna serve some fuckin man
Well then you gonna be a lonely depressed lil bitch your whole life might as well rope rn bet you dont even pass nigger

i say again, you need a man

>I like to draw a bit (even though I'm terrible at it) I've always liked creative stuff, writing, designing, games. Also interested in politics/policy, and have always been somewhat into computers and tech.

it is very possible to make money with any of those although doing so changes your relationship with them a bit
>t.drawfag

What kind of thing you like to write and what are your politics? I don't want to put pressure on you, but our future friendship depends on your answer.

i get how you feel op, sometimes being depressed is really being stuck. you know somethings wrong and you know you could change it but youre unable to

you said youre at college, are you in any groups or clubs? you know anyone in your classes?

what are you guys, chasers who come here to try and lobby lonely transwomen into getting with men? i don't understand the point since you likely don't live near any of the people you try and convince
thing is i'm not actually good at any of those things. I know that only a very tiny niche of people make a living from these thing and even then the amount of work it requires takes over your entire life
plus i'm pretty adhd so it's hard for me to continously focus on one thing and not switch interests every so often
i don't think i'm lucky or skilled enough to pursue any of those things
i don't write much but every now and then i've always liked writing some comedic stuff/skits.
one day i'd really like to write and draw comics, mostly inspired by shonen stuff
i dont know if i adhere to any particular political ideology, I guess I'd place myself kind of centre left.
>are you in any groups or clubs?
no, there aren't really any i'm that interested in. I guess there's like a gaming club and anime club but idk if my tastes will overlap with theirs
>you know anyone in your classes?
no, at most i've smalltalked with people

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it always starts with small talk honestly. you can go an entire semester just small talking and making casual jokes with a friend or you could ask them what they're doing after just once and see what comes of it. most people aren't against the idea of just getting coffee with someone.

>I like to draw a bit (even though I'm terrible at it) I've always liked creative stuff, writing, designing, games. Also interested in politics/policy, and have always been somewhat into computers and tech.
you sound awesome and i wish you were my friend.
as an adhd artist who also has a bunch of diverse creative interests, maybe try to think of stuff that only you can do, specifically through the combination of these interests, or by leveraging your interest shifting from thing to thing.
i think that even people like us can specialize, it's just not going to be as obvious as "character designer" or "sound designer".
i'm sorry you feel depressed. i wish i had something more helpful to say, but i'm falling asleep. you sound cool and you deserve to be happy so i really hope for the best for you.

i guess you're right, i just haven't really talked to anyone that much. also gets awkward when you end up sitting somewhere where no one else around wants to talk
thanks user i appreciate it
i'm not sure there is anything that only I can do, i'm pretty mediocre at my talents. I'm just really struggling to figure out what to do, it feels like no matter what job I pick i'm gonna be miserable and hate it, and maybe not even make it through uni for it

start dating, love is the strongest motivative force

really? idk how strongly i feel about the idea of dating
i guess it'd be nice but i'm awkward and like a bit of alone time, plus i doubt i could attract anyone decent

crnge