Recently started to question my gender, and been going through my life history to see if I 'actually am trans'
A lot of the time, I see 'sissy fetish' pop up as an indication of possible transness, and I was *obsessed* with that shit. Like, since I was 13/14. I still watch it occasionally, but the quality of tumblr content has been mostly unsurpassed, so I stay away from it mostly
But this all is extremely strange to me, because my sissy fetishism had extremely little to do with humiliation or feminization.
It was much more about being extremely desirable, to the point that people were willing to break past any physical or emotional barriers I had. Like, I (self-inserting as the sissy) was considered THAT attractive to these people! As a socially anxious and isolated teenager, this was appealing for obvious reasons
A lot of my fetishes revolve around this; I am somewhat into soft-core rape/CNC, free-use, BDSM for similar reasons. People just forcing themselves onto me because I'm too scared or anxious to try anything myself
Does anybody else relate to this? Can I consider sissy fetishism a checkmark for the 'possibly trans' category if it wasn't the feminization aspect that was appealing to me? Or am I just an unhinged submissive/bottom?
I think "gay bottom" and "straight transgirl" are points on the same spectrum, if that makes sense as an answer to your question. I think a ton of submissive AMABs have the same questions you do about the relationship between their sexuality and their gender and how best to express it. Some experience gender dysphoria from an early age with a clarity and severity that leaves little room for doubt as to whether they're "actually trans." But many people are in the same grey area as you
I think it's best not to think of it in binary terms of "am I really trans, yes or no" but rather in terms of "how do I want to present myself to the world, how do I want people to see me and treat me." There are many paths available to you
Dominic Bailey
>if I'm addicted to the gooner to trooner pipeline hypnosis videos am I becoming trans?
Idk I mean that's what they meant to do unironically, u went in too deep take ur hrt
Jordan Fisher
Fair...I would prefer being a 'man', but I also want to be pretty. But pretty in a way that only women can be, idk, the 'fem gays' don't really seem super fem to me
I don't watch the hypnosis stuff or Bambi shit, both of them are kinda cringe. I just like the caption stuff, it's kinda like erotica
Brayden Kelly
The fact that I watched sissy shit when I was like 14-15 is just more proof that I'm actually cis and should repress.
Austin Myers
If you think your a troon look up the DSM v diagnostic criteria, that'll give a reasonable guide as to whether your really "trans".
I figure you might just be affected by the human condition, that is to say you want to be loved and desired. That doesn't indicate much on its own other than probable neglect. So liking sissy stuff means probably next to nothing Being a troon is really a leap of faith and it'll always be on your prerogative.
Dominic Hill
How old are you now? And why continue to rep?
Josiah Ross
>I figure you might just be affected by the human condition, that is to say you want to be loved and desired. That doesn't indicate much on its own other than probable neglect.
:( sad
part of me wonders if my extreme social neglect has just made me desire more fundamental things than gender correction, and the second I can actually find love and correct that, I'll realize I want to transition
Caleb Hughes
you could probably write the book on women's sexuality 101. i'm afab you get the stamp of approval certified female sexuality
Liam Murphy
reading this kinda made my stomach drop, is this a troll or are u serious
Eli Allen
>I figure you might just be affected by the human condition, that is to say you want to be loved and desired not OP but I'd agree that's a thing. there's a non-zero amount of tranners on this board admitting to trooning out because girls were more desirable
are you only attracted to men, since you mentioned bottom? or did you ever like girls beforehand
Brandon Bennett
100% serious getting it from tumblr, actually thinking about the way things make you feel (extremely little to do with... It was much more about...), the things you listed are things pretty much every girl is into, crown jewel is "People just forcing themselves onto me because I'm too scared or anxious to try anything myself," that's the cornerstone of female sexuality, it's an actual statistic how many cis women have rape fantasies out of fear of initiation lol. the sissy fantasy you described, people having uncontrollable desire for you, just sounds like a different flavor of a/b/o (mtf flavor as opposed to womb flavor) which is another common female interest. be free femanon
Ryder Sanders
>there's a non-zero amount of tranners on this board admitting to trooning out because girls were more desirable
wonder how often that works out for them...seems like it becomes a lot harder after 20's + harder to marry? but maybe not
>are you only attracted to men, since you mentioned bottom? or did you ever like girls beforehand
I am 'straight' but like...probably bi. And like most bi's, I like most women a decent amount and like some men enough that I would pay money to suck them off. I just haven't explored my gay side much out of fear
I say 'bottom' because I don't really like using my dick that much. Nothing to do with dysphoria, just me using it feels awkward and strange
Nolan Butler
That's a possibility, when I was In highschool and repressing I was worried I'd someday transition, and if I did I'd hurt a person I would've loved.
Either way OP getting over this in one way or another hopefully sets you on a secure path where you know what you are and what you should do and that's invaluable for love and affection as you can perform self realization.
Jacob Davis
:o
that's crazy...also didnt know about a/b/o, that sounds like something I'd be into
thank you for the comment, super well explained and definitely helped assuage some of my gender questions
Cooper Williams
>I am 'straight' but like...probably bi. And like most bi's, I like most women a decent amount >I say 'bottom' because I don't really like using my dick that much You remind me of those people into gentle femdom or call themselves "straight bottoms". Regardless of who you're with, your sexuality is a very receptive one where you don't want to take the lead and force themselves on you. IMO that itself isn't any indicator of being trans or not, like half of all japanese guys are like that. A bigger red flag would be if you exclusively imagined yourself as a woman in those fantasies and never as the male bottom
Camden James
>How old are you now? 21 >And why continue to rep? I'm a pussy. I'm still reliant on my family for education. I'm scared to lose everyone. I still have a lot of internalized transphobia. And of course I don't think I'll pass.
Aaron Martin
>A bigger red flag would be if you exclusively imagined yourself as a woman in those fantasies and never as the male bottom
I mostly see myself as a figure that the other person is attracted to and loves enough to want to just *take* me...and the only time I can imagine somebody doing that is a man with a girl (me). So I often imagine myself as a girl in those fantasies
I don't *need* to be a girl. I don't want boobs, or hips, or anything necessarily, I just want whatever I need to be liked. tbc, I'd be perfectly fine with boobs or hips, but lacking them isn't dysphoria necessarily...the only reason I'd ever want them is so I'm sexually treated how I want
>like half of all japanese guys are like that kinda interesting desu
Leo Smith
>21 fair, that's a bit old, but I'm 24 and seriously entertaining these thoughts
>I'm a pussy are you scared of the effects of HRT?
>I'm still reliant on my family for education. I'm scared to lose everyone. would your family/friends not support you
>I still have a lot of internalized transphobia. I understand, so do I
> And of course I don't think I'll pass. I don't know what you look like, so I can't say much here, but surgeries/hormones really are magic. I look very masc and am still reasonably hopeful
Landon Hill
>and the only time I can imagine somebody doing that is a man with a girl (me) Interesting. Any inkling why you rarely imagine >being with a girl as a guy >being with a gay top as a guy >being with a girl as a girl ?
>I just want whatever I need to be liked You might have other issues like self-esteem that you need to work on first, idk but that doesn't seem like a healthy attitude to have i the long run, even if you were a 10/10 cis girl
Austin Long
>being with a girl as a guy anxiety issues, dont feel like im good enough for that
>being with a gay top as a guy anxiety issues, dont feel like im good enough for that
>being with a girl as a girl never considered this...this seems okay. I don't really ever watch lesbian porn though, never understood the appeal of it
>You might have other issues like self-esteem that you need to work on first, idk but that doesn't seem like a healthy attitude to have i the long run, even if you were a 10/10 cis girl
:( yeah that's fair, it's really hard to untangle all this trans shit given all of my other mental issues. I don't know what's real or just a really big cope I've built up over years of negative emotions
Christopher Turner
>fair, that's a bit old, but I'm 24 and seriously entertaining these thoughts I know people older then me have had things work out for them. But I feel I'm especially male. >are you scared of the effects of HRT? I'm scared of it not working/working half way. >would your family/friends not support you My family no. Some of my friends. But others wouldn't be able to deal with it. >I understand, so do I Yah its ass. >but surgeries/hormones really are magic. Yah like I said I've seen a lot of impressive changes. But I feel its a harsh gamble for me.
