>share pc with boyfriend >while hes out i check his internet history out of curiosity >cis porn cis porn cis porn fuck fuck fuck >is he jerking off to cis women because im no good???? >i know he can find better than me because hes hot and buff >go schizo mode and freak out for a while >convince myself to hate him >go on omegle and get naked and jerk off for every random men for hours for validation and compliments >feel nauseous afterwards, crash in bed >bf comes home later, senses im sad >avoids him when he tries to make me feel better >sleep for the rest of the day >flash forward to tomorrow bf wakes me up in the morning >"surprise!" >"wha-" >bf is wearing nothing but an apron >hands me a plate of freshly made belgium waffles >squirts wip cream on top >"hope you feel better, lets have more fun when i get back home later!" >he woke up early before his office job to do this for me >while hes getting ready for work, take a bite of waffle >waffle is my favorite >start crying >feel shitty, guilty, irredemeable >why why why did i get so paranoid schizo why fuck fuck i ruined it >bf doesnt know anything though....
is it possible to hide dark secrets ethically and live a normal healthy life? i hate being stupid..
people who need chaos to function confuse the shit out of me like why can't you just be chill and relax??
Justin Carter
It was just Omegle, don’t worry about it If you feel so guilty tell him and say you are fucking retarded, but I honestly wouldn’t risk it
Xavier Evans
user you need to go to a therapist...
Hunter Bennett
women love histrionics & emotional conflaguration if you aren't beating your gf/cheating on her and getting caught/being an asshole etc, they get bored and move on
I dont know why estrogen does this to peoples brains, but they need 'strife' or they will NOT stick around for long
you will never understand women if you don't intellectualise shit like this. they are like wandering children and stability bores them. being loving & consistent & stable = they go stir crazy and start shitting on the walls and screaming and making up problems until theyre screaming at you about inane shit like not putting the toilet seat down, they need their fix
Isaac Cox
wish i knew how honestly. never successfully had a relaxing bath in my life. it gets me all tense, the stuff most people do to calm down
>is it possible to hide dark secrets ethically and live a normal healthy life? It's not only possible, it's necessary. Especially if you're female brained, and... >while hes out i check his internet history out of curiosity ...you most definitely are female-brained. It's very important that the male brained people in your life never become aware of how crazy you actually are.
There's a reason the feminine is associated with the Moon. The masculine Sun is always just there, blazing away, projecting outward. The Moon rarely shows all of itself, constantly revealing different sides and hiding others, and when it does show its full self? Lunacy.
Camden Martin
>tranners get mad if their bf is bi >will also get mad if their bf is straight Tell your bf what you did and why
yeah, you get it! besides, i feel like it's the same mindset i had on testosterone, of seeking out new fetishes and kinds of hot people in the world, except the estrogen made it more emotional in texture, so now it's like...seeking out new ways to feel about stuff.
Carter Green
Thank god you people post in here too to remind me I don't actually have BPD.
just find someone adhd brained who can keep up with the chaos and even find it fun
Ryan Green
>im scared lol save it for him retard, you're not gonna manipulate anons like you can him
if you actually care about him go start therapy NOW
Nicholas Reed
You sound like my ex and this disgusts me and you disgust me
Adrian Sullivan
youre not stupid you're bpd
Alexander Thomas
I mean I understand not wanting your partner to use porn of other girls, but why does the fact they're normal matter? If anything isn't it better than him viewing trans porn? Because that must indicate he's only into women, and views you as one.
