how much more do i have to cut myself for him to forgive me? how many times do i have to cut myself to make up for all the terrible things ive told him? how much more until he sees how much guilt i feel for causing him so much pain?
i miss my ex so fucking much. i wish he would give me a chance to redeem myself and show him that i really do feel bad for being such an emotional mess and burden to him and i HAVE been trying my hardest to behave and not say things to tick him off but he still doesnt think i deserve any of his attention and constantly ignores me everyday. i just want to be part of his life again. i just want to be his friend again. we were best friends for 10 years before we tried dating each other but now he treats me like some evil demon who can never be redeemed and suddenly i mean absolutely nothing to him after realizing dating a bpd wasnt as bearable as he thought it would be. it's not fucking fair. i didnt mean to hurt him like that and im trying so hard to make up for everything but he hates me so much now that hes willing to throw our entire 10 year friendship away like it meant so little to him. i thought he loved me. hes a fucking liar for telling me he wanted to stay friends no matter what even if our relationship went haywire. so much for that. i guess i dont deserve anything after all.
i hate my life im so sick of being bpd i wish i could forget about him as easily as he forgot about me but he still means the world to me months after he broke up with me. whatever im just gonna go play elden ring for 10 hours after i finish sobbing
No wonder he wants nothing to do with you you fucking psycho.
Chase Rodriguez
What did you do
James Taylor
did you send him pics of your cuts?
Joseph Miller
Nobody wants you to cut yourself for them except for sadists everyone else thinks you're psycho. Stop.
James Turner
>for all the terrible things ive told him what did you say to him that was so terrible
Connor Thompson
Get a hobby, nerd
Gavin Parker
Would someone ban this retard already?
Austin Price
whats the point he'll never ever see me the same way ever again. why do you think im a psycho Being mentally ill needy and emotionally dependent on him the usual bpd stuff i get really desperate to get all my needs met bcs of my crippling insecurities and fear of abandonment so i get really manipulative about it sometimes and say nasty shit to him and blow up at him inappropriately idk should i? the relationship seems unsalvageable at this point anyway. might as well go out with a bang i dont know how else to convince him i feel bad and want to atone. i desperately want him to forgive me and im running out of solutions
John Cooper
lol
Carson Jones
damn he sounds like an asshole
Carson Robinson
>i dont know how else to convince him cuts convince no one you retard, understand that already. its a redflag, youre a walking redflag already with all those cuts. stop it. seek fucking help.
Nathaniel Wood
>idk should i? i think you should, it would evoke an interesting response on his part
Kevin Scott
>be me >enter tttt so see what wacky threads the funny trannies have today >see this O______O
Hunter Murphy
have you gotten any kind of treatment for your BPD, OP? im also curious about any other people with BPD in this thread as well
Jordan Gonzalez
post more
Brandon Richardson
idk throughout the relationship i constantly called him a liar, splitted alot and told him i hated him and blocked him just to add him back the next day, accused him of not caring about me at all or that he never loved me, told him he has no empathy and no emotions, stuff like that im playing elden ring rn does that count? i used to do lots of sports but covid happened and im not really allowed to go outside anymore truuuuue hes such an unemotional prick i hate him yeah ok imma do it ill send screens if he replies i had like three dbt sessions and gave up. i also took meds for like a month and also gave up and stopped taking them. it just feels pointless. im never getting better
Kayden Richardson
>idk throughout the relationship i constantly called him a liar, splitted alot and told him i hated him and blocked him just to add him back the next day, accused him of not caring about me at all or that he never loved me, told him he has no empathy and no emotions, stuff like that literally a woman. it can be tiring to hear all that but i also feel they arent even terrible things to say, just typical shit of insecure person. most men have dealt with that at least once.
Luis Collins
c'mon you're gonna hurt yourself going on like this
3 sessions is nothing though. i have been in therapy for 9 months and only recently found out i have CPTSD (which overlaps with BPD) i think it's unrealistic to say that we will ever fully heal, but we can at least treat or reduce our symptoms if you ever feel ready for therapy again.
i also gave up on the meds i was given very quickly lol but im hoping to try some new ones soon
