took hrt for a month but i got scared and stopped because i noticed the start of breast growth with a hard bump behind my left nipple. luckily it's not visually noticeable but i mean idk what i was expecting. i don't want breast growth yet i still took E and now i just willingly gave myself gyno to deal with for the rest of my life.
might try again with raloxifene but i know that's a cope and would only lessen growth at best, not prevent it. there's no getting around and it's a compromise i'd have to make, but idk if i can and i'm thinking of just repressing and gymmaxxing or something. but i'm also worried i'm gonna regret stopping and end up going back on hrt down the line anyways. i go back and forth with how i feel about taking hrt every single day i can't fucking make a decision, next thing i know i'm gonna be 30 still trying to decide and it'll be OVER...
>i just willingly gave myself gyno to deal with for the rest of my life I did the same thing. It went away after about 6 months off E.
Ryder Wilson
if you stopped just when you started noticing breast growth, then you don't have gyno that you're going to have to deal with for the rest of your life.
Robert Powell
If you don’t want breast growth then what are you repressing? Lol
William Lopez
you'd think that until you saw my stubby fridge body the doctor that prescribed me the meds said i'm most likely stuck with it, so that's nice to hear i wonder that a lot. i've obsessed over wishing i was a girl for over half a decade now, but if i don't want one of the key features of a woman's body, am i even trans? is this just severe brainworms? my ideal goals would be literally everything else that comes with hrt besides breasts, which i realize is just unrealistic. i just wanna be an androgynous female with a flat chest...
Lincoln Wood
Sounds like you could work on better self realization before getting on hormones, you can be androgynous and identify as female as you are now to see how it feels but at some point or another you’re going to have to make an attempt to come to terms with the fact that you’re a human and you’re going to age. You’re going to develop secondary sex characteristics one way or another. Maybe try blockers for a bit and talk with a gender therapist about these issues?
Logan Brown
I dont really believe in nb but if you do, maybe thats what you id as..? You could get gyno surgery now and then get hormones. You Will however never get tits, for better or for worse
Daniel Reyes
i heard taking only blockers can come with health problems, not sure short term though. fear of aging i think has for sure influenced these feelings though, i think i'm having a crisis over my youthful features going away as my body continues to masculinize, and hrt is a desperate attempt to delay that? i find myself intrigued by the hrt femboy stuff i see on here a lot, and as great as that sounds for like the next decade or so, i can't see how it'll pan out once i'm 30+ if i don't actually plan on transitioning. i'd like to be edgy and say i don't plan on being alive by then anyways so who cares, but that's not a guarantee and idk if i wanna fuck my life up the aesthetics of being androgynous/nb/gnc i actually adore, but i also don't really believe in the social identity part of it i've thought about the gyno surgery, whether i get it now or go back on hrt and get the breasts removed once they've finished growing. but idk
Kevin James
>i also don't really believe in the social identity part of it The identity part comes from the appearance. Accept you'll be a man, I guess. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Michael Myers
i'm referring to things like using they/them pronouns or whatever. idk the whole nb thing confuses me and i'm rly sleepy rn >Accept you'll be a man :/ i don't wanna be a man... but i don't want to transition... my goals just seem jumbled and unattainable, i think no matter what side i go down i'm going to find something i'm unhappy about
Ian Sanchez
Yep, good luck on self discovery, acceptance and all the mumbo jumbo. Try not to become a TERF or transphobe while doing that. Though you probably will.
Kevin Jones
I was the exact same way, stopped at 5 weeks. I'm 2 months off it and the lump is still there, getting very, very concerned to the point that my brain is taking drastic measures.
Logan Wright
why lmao
Joseph Parker
Why what? That the lump is still there? I don't know, the charts all blatantly lied when they said it'd start at the 3 month point.
Why is my brain taking drastic measures? Because my body is fucking ruined, I can't even look myself in the mirror anymore without clawing at my body and screaming until my voice gives out.
Why did I stop? Because estrogen made my brain less driven and I'd rather have the more focused brain than a female body.
Ethan Reyes
I know someone exactly the same he's actually did it several times at this point. He says he likes being a masculine guy but other times he wants to be super feminine I see him get obsessed with female characters all the time and he wants to be like them and look like them. I'm not sure what's wrong or how to help
Isaac Watson
oh we've talked before i just said ritalin helps a lot for that
Henry Lewis
I am the exact same way as you OP but probably a couple years down the line (25). I don't want boobs but the masculinization I have to endure far outweighs the not wanting boobies part. I really wish I started earlier and just boymoded until I was maybe comfortable socially transitioning or alternatively just boymode forever.
I can't tell you what to do but I ended up on HRT anyways, the only difference being that I ended up wasting a couple years.
Nathan Perez
The charts are all from studies taken on 50 year old hons on low doses of spiro and e pills for swallowing.
If you take real hrt and you’re not a dinosaur you’ll get results very quickly.
All charts and “info” about hrt are literal meme studies. The studies that say cypro and bica kills you are done on cancer patients that have to take insane amounts of the stuff to counteract literal cancer. Not trans people taking a fraction of a tablet a day
