Bi ftm here. When I was 14 my best friend and first love (a guy) killed himself...

Bi ftm here. When I was 14 my best friend and first love (a guy) killed himself. He had a list in his journal of all the people he wanted to fuck and after he died his mom showed all the girls who were on the list. Including me. Flash forward to yesterday, I was talking to my mom and she said something like “Are you sure you want to be a man? If you had been born a man you would have never been on [firstlove] list of people he wanted to smash”. Oddly enough this is actually getting to me. I haven’t doubted my transition whatsoever up until now and my dysphoria is pretty crippling. Why am i getting worked up over a literally dead 14 year old boy hypothetically no longer wanting to fuck me anymore? Is this AGP?

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i would take this as a motivation to be a man and never look back

Have you ever hated him somehow?

user what if he wanted to fuck you because he was secretly bisexual. Making a list of people you want to fuck seems like overcompensating for something

Cute t4t picrel

This guy is a weirdo your mom is a weirdo
Hell is wrong with yall

It's not agp, but it's definitely unmanly behavior and you need to get over it. Being sad that you get less sexual attention from men because you transitioned is the most pussy shit ever and you can and should be bullied for it.

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It’s actually possible that he heroed because of tranny thoughts. He told me once that he was a girl in all of his dreams and i know he watched mtf porn. No signs other than that though. Who knows, maybe if he’d stayed alive he would’ve been a based chaser My mom is a weirdo i’ll give you that. Google “covert incest” That’s basically how she parented me.
That’s the thing though, I’m not even actually sad about that. If anything i’m relieved to not feel like eye candy anymore. It’s just with this one dude who??? Is not even alive ?? The mind works in such mysterious ways

not fully convinced that this is a real situation because normal mothers dont behave like this (both yours and his) but if it is then shes just using your feelings against you to manipulate you. it must be pretty obvious that you still love this guy and shes just gonna use whatever she can think of to try to emotionally torture you out of transitioning. theres no other reason to say some dumbass bullshit like that. you dont feel bad because you have AGP you feel bad because you never got over him (not judging or saying that you need to get over him, thats just why you feel bad)