I hope everyone reads this. I have 2 main doubts surrounding transgenderism, and they are very frustrating and hard to get off my mind. I hope people here can give me the sufficient answers I am looking.
1- How do I keep this away from family members? Ever since I was a child I exhibited feminine traits and disliked sports, but my family members (especially on my fathers side) always shamed me for it. My family is conservative. I am literally willing to do anything, cross-dressing and makeup are the bare minimum for me. I am just willing to know how to start taking HRT and keep it secretive? How do I make sure that my family doesn't notice I take HRT, or that I am transitioning. So will I get disowned, or will I have to suffer as a boymoder until I live independently?
Breast growth and fat redistribution are two of the most prominent features of HRT, I am afraid this will lead to some family problems.
2- AGP vs HSTS. Ever since I started joining transgender communities and talking and browsing, I was introduced immediately to autogynephilia (blanchard's typology) which made me heavily doubt my dysphoria. If my dysphoria wasn't present in childhood, does that mean that its currently meaningless and AGP? is my dysphoria now nothing but fake mental constructs? Am I just an AGP retard? As I said in (1), I did exhibit feminine traits and never engaged in sports, and I was shamed for it, but I don't remember feeling he desire to be a female. Shit memory or AGP?
I could discuss those 2 points at length but I am willing to hear some ideas first. This board is literally the best board I have seen on Any Forums, the other boards cause me distress. I hope people here take this thread seriously.
2. If you insist on believing in them anyway Blanchard literally said he thinks agps should transition
Austin Lee
Blanchardism is retarded, don't take it seriously
Joseph Diaz
Start making an exit plan for if your parents don't accept you, there are likely different lgbt groups around town where you may find shelter or something like that Beyond that don't let material consequences keep you from transitioning beyond like a couple weeks or so
Aiden Cook
Boymoding is a lot easier than you would think. As long as you're willing to make sacrifices to your presentation like cutting your hair short and wearing sports bras or binders.
Hunter Johnson
Blanchardism is nonsense if you want to transition you should
Nathaniel Rogers
>If my dysphoria wasn't present in childhood, does that mean that its currently meaningless and AGP? it wasn’t present because you weren’t developing male traits yet dumbass. there’s a reason why most kids come out as trans through stuff like social association and understanding the two sexes and not asking their parents why they want to cut their penis off.
Kayden Bell
It's not long for me to start living independently. Its good because then I may be free to transition but its also bad because I might have breakdowns due to inability to live alone. But thats a separate thing. Is it possible to hide the fact that I take HRT. Will my family know I am a boymoder.
Oliver Diaz
>Boymoding is a lot easier than you would think. As long as you're willing to make sacrifices to your presentation like cutting your hair short and wearing sports bras or binders. i dont even have to do thatb ecause i didnt grow any tits
Nathaniel Parker
Okay I'm gonna share my perspective n stuff. >How do I keep this away from family members? Your problem >how to start taking HRT Depends on where u live. In my country you just go to the pharmacy and buy stuff for hrt, in usa it's more complicated and other people will help more than me >do I make sure that my family doesn't notice I take HRT after 2-6 months(ymmv) they will kinda probably notice >So will I get disowned depends on ur family. >AGP vs HSTS bullshit, I'm not even gonna read what you have to say about it.
alright I will read >If my dysphoria wasn't present in childhood >is my dysphoria now nothing but fake mental constructs? >Am I just an AGP retard? You think too much.
You want to be a woman - you take hrt. You want to have a woman's body - you take hrt, if you also don't mind being a woman.
Elijah Flores
OP here. I didn't have a full understanding of the female sex, especially the female genitalia when I was a kid. So that makes sense. I feel like just because I read all those stories about kids magically knowing they are in "the wrong body", so now I have wrong expectations.
Ryan Anderson
>after 2-6 months(ymmv) they will kinda probably notice or maybe not. Ive seen people who would be on hrt up to a year and nobody noticed shit so not necessary
Daniel Wilson
OP. I don't have any issues with hair. My main issues are with breast growth. I am still doing research about HRT, but I do think there is a method to slow down breast growth. Thanks for your response.
David Gomez
Any scientific/research papers against autogynephilia?
Asher Davis
> but I do think there is a method to slow down breast growth Idk what's the method you found but I advise not to mess with breast growth.
Kevin Cook
Yea well, fuck this. If I get caught it's probably going to be the worst moment in my life.
Jordan Miller
>If I get caught it's probably going to be the worst moment in my life. And if you'll ruin your breast growth you'll need to have breast augmentation in the future.
Anthony Hernandez
I don't want my breasts to get way too large. I am fine with small/decent breast size. I think that decent size (A or B cup) can be hidden.
Blake Rogers
Does female people in your family have large breasts? If not than I think you really should not worry about it, if you won't go naked in front of them, I don't think they will notice anything(as long as you don't wear really tight clothes)
Jordan Wood
>Does Do
Benjamin Diaz
yeah they’re the lucky ones. i get your concerns, people genuinely have tried to gatekeep trans people as “only being valid if they knew right away” but it’s bullshit. it always has been. they’re just lucky that their parents noticed. just remember that AGP and HSTS are memes, and that you’re the only one who defines you.
Carter Rogers
Hello frog, let me put it this way, if you were not obviously feminine as a child where your parents already expected you to be girlish, you're probably not gender dysphoric. You're probably just a regular crossdresser.
op has already stated they feminine and girlish. they just repressed because their conservative parents shamed them. so probably a repping tranny and not just a crossdresser
Daniel Mitchell
Hello, I am OP. As I said, I did have pretty feminine traits. I very much hated facial hair and any other type of hair, which some boys around me used to have. I was very thin with low muscle mass, which was not normal in my environment. I would also get tantrums everytime I was forced to cut my hair, I would go unresponsive and stop eating for more than a day, and this hate fo haircuts is still present.
What stands out more is my dislike for sports specifically football, the only thing I actually was good at was running and jumping. I also remember very vividly, running and crying to my father after I was picked on bullied for being a "princess"
Sorry for typing too much.
Dominic Hernandez
Given that the first time I have ever seen AGP and HSTS was on Any Forums, I would say your point is true.
Bentley Morales
On my father's side, I only have one aunt and 6 uncles. My uncles have "man boobs", and I would say that my aunt has a C cup. On my mother's side, there are only 2 uncles and 5 aunts, and all my aunts on my mothers side have small to decent sized breasts (A or B cup).
Matthew Morgan
Ok, since you asked me, lets me ask a few questions: Were you noticeably feminine as a young boy? Do you feel solely attracted to boy and men? Did you, or do you find crossdressing sexually exciting?
