/mtfg/ dudes turning themselves into girls or something

you’re probably right when you started off by attributing mood to diet and boredom, once you are feeling bad, it’s easy to get anxious and somewhat paranoid
do you work at a Lowe’s or similar DIY store?

I can definitely tell when I'm hungry from dieting b/c I keep looking at food online.

:/

The boomer posters this year are fuckin whack

I keep repeatedly questioning myself, so I'm curious. I've done so much mental gymnastics like some kind of defense mechanism to the point where I actually convinced myself of things like, "every boy wants to be a girl, it's normal, you're not trans."

So here's what I'm wondering:
>How bad is/was your dysphoria?
>What did/does it feel like?

yeah i work in a really small hardware store like that. im pretty certain i was just way too hungry because i saved up spare change at the register people didnt want until i could buy myself food and yesterady i forgot my lunch. I know my mood depends on my nutrition a lot it's just really hard to feed myself because i need like 3000 calories a day to maintain weight and more with exercise and i hate preparing food unless its for someone else. gonna do a better job for sure.
based lol
lol mood. i was totally spaced out today and talked to my coworker about anime for like 15 minutes because i was so dissociated.
ok zoomer
my dysphoria was pretty bad if i looked in the mirror i would vomite and i castrated myself because i was forced off hrt. it just felt really wrong and the longer i thought about it the more i felt like I wasnt real and the world was just an ugly ball. i was able to exist just because i could forget who and what i was most of the time but every second of awareness was sharp sharp pain.

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>i hate preparing food unless its for someone else
what Maiq does is pretends he makes every meal for someone else, which is kind of true, every meal is practice for making food for someone else eventually

best way to stop a self hate filled panic attack?

IDK, that sounds pretty normal to me.

thats true but i just always feel bad wasting ingredients if i dont have them then i cant plan meals because sometimes my dad buys random shit and makes it. hes a great cook and so is my mom but its hard to do it that way is all.
just gotta wait it out. it should be over already if its a panic attack and not an anxiety attack.
i am way too shy to talk to anyone besides my brother about anime its just like a weird secretive autism i have everywhere except online where i share way too much about myself. But yeah my eyes glaze over and i just start talking and i probably sound 80iq

Hate something else and feel good about it! What’s your least favorite movie and why?

That's kind of another coping mechanism I formed, I just sort of detached from reality and saw everything in very abstract terms like nothing mattered and my body was just a meat puppet and it didn't matter if it was how I wanted it to me.
I don't feel sick when I look at myself or anything, but how some of my body looks definitely feels wrong to me and I keep imagining myself with a more feminine body. I feel really warm and content when I imagine that, like it feels right. What's been consuming my thoughts even more than wishing my body was different is knowing that I can do something about it. I guess I partially got past the disgust at how my body is, but I still keep wanting it to be different than it is.
I already have some small tits just from drug abuse and I still look relatively young and not that masculine from it suppressing my testosterone too, and I'm happy about those things. I've also been trying some voice training recently while I'm thinking about it, and I like how my voice sounds while I'm doing it more. Also since I stopped trying to deny it to myself, I've loosened up my mannerisms a bit and feel more comfortable acting more natural and less like I have to force what I'm doing.

wish i had a vagina and hope i can
do you think its possible if i get srs?

what's the difference between the two? do anxiety attacks last longer?
it's an anxiety attack

yeah just transition youll be fine
yeah srs gives you a vagina
anxiety attacks have less severe physical symptoms, no vomiting, less sweating, less hot and cold flashes, no hyperventilating etc and tent to last 30 minutes or so while panic attacks usually dont last more than 10

no lol

what if they last for an hour or more?
how do you stop it?

meditate

>How bad is/was your dysphoria?
not very bad but it's there
>What did/does it feel like?
remediable dissatisfaction
>I've done so much mental gymnastics like some kind of defense mechanism to the point where I actually convinced myself of things like, "every boy wants to be a girl, it's normal, you're not trans."
you're never going to be 100% certain of this until you get to the other side and are happy with your results. best bet is just decide whether you're going to be able to lead a fulfilling life the way you are pre-transition. if you can, prob transition isn't for you. if you cant, well what's there left to question? I did everything i was told to do to find some kind of fulfillment or meaning in my life pre-tran and it was always somehow missing this fundamental ingredient. the next 'thing' on the list was to have kids, and i've just always known i don't want kids. this was the right decision. i'm sure there'll be shitty days but overall it's already bringing people into my life with whom i can finally experience honest connection and understanding. the experience of hrt and its effects continue to be a source of wonderment. overall i feel like i'm moving myself in the direction of happiness and thats dope.

Baby trans here, have a follow up appointment to start Hrt in a week. I came across reddit.com/r/DrWillPowers/ i know its reddit but is this guy legit? he prescribes like 4x the estrogen dose and im wondering if i go to my doctor im gonna get hondosed...

>every boy wants to be a girl
definitely false

powers is legit and actually cares about good results over minimizing tiny risks so value what he says. your actual levels matter more than dosage, but many many endos hondose yes. honestly you dont really need to worry about estrogen being too high besides the mood swings

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