In bed with head on bf's shoulder

>in bed with head on bf's shoulder
>we're both comfy af
>he feels nice and warm
>cuddle closer to him
>have not had an erection in nearly a year thanks to HRT
>get one while cuddling him now
>want to die
>push myself away and get out of bed
>he asks what's wrong
>tell him nothings wrong, just need to use the bathroom
>dick has atrophied enough that the boner's easy to hide as I walk away
>go to living room and sleep on couch to avoid risk of him feeling my boner

I really wish I could afford Suporn's surgery.

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You sound like such a massive drama queen. Instead of throwing a hissy fit, you could grind against his leg. It's fun.

lmao your boyfriend probably felt like shit thinking something happened or that he did something wrong.

i bet he would have enjoyed having your little girlboner poking at him I know I would have

Could have just turned around and asked him to spoon you

Willing to bet he’ll end up dumping this sperg after yet another episode “Don’t touch me! Nothing is wrong! I’ll sleep on the couch!”. Constantly feeling like shit because of outbursts like this is really mentally taxing. What OP does is toxic.
This.

He's only dated cis girls before. I don't like using my dick and I prefer not to acknowledge that it's there at all so I wouldn't want to do that.
I'm going to explain what happened to him when he wakes up. I wake up earlier than he does to get breakfast and stuff ready.
I don't think he would, I'd rather not risk it.
I panicked because I haven't had a boner in a really long time. It also hurt and was uncomfortable because my penis ached from being erect.
I'm going to try to make it up to him with a bj.

>It also hurt and was uncomfortable because my penis ached from being erect.
Don't know how well known this is, but you can normally make an erection go away by flexing your glutes and thighs. Takes a minute or so but keep flexing them as much as you can and it forces the blood away from your dick and into the larger muscles of your body.
FWIW OP I personally wouldn't have cared but it sounds like you're handling this well, definitely make sure you explain to him because I'd be freaking out if I was in his position.

user, don't. If you're bf really loves you, he won't care, hell; he won't even acknowledge it.

I did something like this once. My bf just picked me up and put me back in bed next to him after I'd fallen asleep on the couch.

That glute and thigh thing will be tremendously helpful in the future if this happens again. This honestly came out of nowhere, I was super glad when my erections seemed to stop completely and didn't expect they might occasionally pop up still.
I explained it to him after he finished breakfast so he wouldn't lose his appetite or be grossed out. He seemed to think it was funny instead though, and apologized for turning me on too much to sleep.
I clarified that I was worried he'd be upset if he felt or noticed my boner and he said he didn't really care. He called me cute for being embarrassed about it.
That is very cute user. I'm going to have cute thoughts about it.

In all honesty, a partner like him might be what you need to get more comfy with your own penor, instead of associating it with something male, ugly, depraved, with a guy like him you should be able to start associating it with cuteness, femininity, etc. I bet there's a quite a contrast between his dick and yours. This way you'll be able to work through your mental hangups.
As for the physical aspect of it, more often than not it's actually testicles that cause dysphoria and not the pp. The penis has a direct female counterpart, the clit, so according to the body map in your brain there's no real discrepancy. But the same can't be said about testicles, like, their female counterpart is a pair of internal organs, ovaries, that's why testicles might feel so alien to a point of causing intense discomfort or dysphoria. I think that's exactly why orchi helps many people to alleviate bottom dysphoria to a point of no longer needing SRS, don't forget that only the minority gets SRS.
Wish you all the best, anonette!

>feminine
>boner
cope

Ugh, how about you fuck off to Any Forums or /repgen/?
Foids clit swells as well when they get turned on. Heard of clitoral erection? Lady boners? en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Clitoral_erection
Also, I'm not saying that the dick IS the clit. I'm saying that estrogenised atrophied penor is def feminine in comparison with a healthy male cock that her bf has. And lastly, there's a lot more similarities between the two organs than differences, like, the only two major differences are the size and that the urethra is rerouted through the dick, other than that both organs developed from the same tissues.

Hon, the biggest difference between a male and a female is the penis. There is no such thing as a "feminine" penis, no matter how much you seethe, cope and dilate.

I appreciate that you're trying to help me, but I just can't feel comfortable with my penis. I'm hoping to have SRS as soon as possible, but Suporn costs a lot of money so it's taking me time to get the savings together.

Aww, what are you doing on this board? Don't you need some seed to spread or something? You're absolutely not a genetic deadend like, right, user?
While you're saving up the money, why don't you try experimenting with stuff? You seemingly have a supportive partner who's open to helping you with opening up little by little. Don't worry too much. Nothing is set in stone. And don't listen to naysayers and negative nancies. Everything you do in your transition is for yourself, not for someone else, you don't need their approval or whatever, fuck them, do it for yourself first and foremost, be as egoistic as you want, it's your body and you'll be living with it, not them/
Wish you luck

lol this is just autism not "being toxic"

> not telling your bf that something is wrong and insisting that you're fine

extremely fembrained

now he might feel rejected because you suddenly, without reason given hurried out of cuddeling and went to SLEEP ON THE COUCH.
tell him you had an erection and paniced.

I don't think I'm comfortable to experiment in any way surrounding my penis. I'm just really uncomfortable with it and anything to do with it. I try not to look down when I shower.
I was embarrassed to tell him and needed to calm down.
I talked to him about it.

Whatever you want to call it, creating stress and making your partner feel bad because you don't want to communicate is not okay