i 100% know im trans, ive known for years and i've been on hrt for 5 months. But goddamn i still cannot take it seeing myself in fem clothes. Any time i wear a dress or a skirt i just see this ugly monster in the mirror and i want to go back to repressing and getting stuck in perma boymode. I just want to feel pretty :/
how the fuck do you deal with not looking good or passing
maybe ur just enby
By anglefrauding urself in the mirror
i WANT to wear those things and look pretty and be seen as a girl by everyone tho :/ it makes me very actively dysphoric to not be feminine but i feel like i cant be without hating myself for the rest of the day and just constantly thinking about it
like it feels like i can't be good enough or pretty enough to actually ever be feminine so instead i just boymode so people don't think im as ugly :/
maybe im bdd as fuck, i dont know. Either way for future replies i will not b posting a picture
thats what i try but then i get a bad glimpse of myself n just become ashamed T^T
also people aren't gonne anglefraud me irl so what's the point
theres nothing to be ashamed of just learn to not give a fuck about what others think
Deshi?
the vast majority of humans don't look terribly attractive
i have no idea why troons think it's a cosmic injustice that they are not the exception
Then just don't look
They feel good
bcuz looking like the wrong sex is a specially evil type of unattractiveness
huh?
i guess i shouldnt care what others think, i just wish i didnt see myself as an abombination
theres a big diff between being ugly and looking like a boy in a dress tho :/ it makes me feel like ill never really be able to see myself as a girl physically, even tho i am one mentally
I feel the same way. I tried wearing dresses and skirts a few years ago because I really wanted to finally get to wear them, and it felt awful because of how I look. After that, I boymoded again. What I've started doing recently is finding the balance there where I feel most comfortable. I wear feminine sweaters and pants and I paint my nails, and aim for some kind of androgyny
that sounds mega cute I should try that
thats most likely what im gonna do for the summer, skinny jeans n just oversized tees n stuff
hopefully that will help a bit >_>
painting nails is rlly nice tho, i always keep mine painted
thanks! i recommend it
yeah that's what I wear when it's too hot for sweaters and hoodies. I hope it helps.
I've also been trying to focus on individual parts of my appearance that feel good. Like as a whole I think I'm gross, but I've been growing my hair out since I was like 16 and I really like it, so I'll make sure my hair looks nice. Or I'll get dysphoric over my boobs but then try to remember how thankful I am to have them at all now. It doesn't cure bad thoughts, but I've been trying have a healthier mindset without fully accepting that I need therapy
that sounds really nice, you have the mindset im trying to achieve rn. things r rough in general :/
ty user, u motivated me to strive for this mindset
>semi passoid trans woman only 5 months in who can anglefraud but also sees herself as a literal brickmonster
>desperately wants to see a girl when she looks in the mirror but can't
I don't care what anyone says, this is perfection and I want a gf like this so I alone can make her feel feminine and pretty
angle fraud until you get a passing pic, post it online and get dopamine hits. And of course never leave your house to break the illusion that you pass.
cis women rarely ever wear dresses or skirts outside of formal situations or to go clubbing, and clubbing is for hypernormalfags anyway