Have you ever repressed your sexuality, Any Forums? Note that I am talking about sexuality, not gender. How did it go?
>developed crush on guy in middle school, didn't process it as such, acted abrasive towards him >asked out girls in high school for the sole purpose of "proving" to ex-friends I wasn't gay >exclusively masturbated to otokonoko and dicks my whole teens, didn't think anything of it because "I like girls" and "it's just a fetish" >thought I was a late bloomer who just didn't like girls yet until I was 19 or 20 >never once fantasized about sex with a woman but didn't pay it any mind >mom isn't surprised when I come out a few years later, says she thought that might have been the case
>develop crush on boy at catholic school >school threatens to kick me out >mom, dad, and grandparents threaten to send me to conversion therapy >begin searching my room daily >never make friends because the faggot >never make friends in high school because i wasn't allowed out of the house >get addicted to heroin in college >enter psychically abusive comphet relationship, she tries to kill me multiple times >troon out after a mental breakdown a few months ago I'm going to kill myself very soon I think.
Jacob Martin
I was pretty similar, especially with asking girls out in HS so I could prove I wasn't gay since there were rumors. One girl actually said yes, so we went on a date to a hay ride and when she tried to kiss me I actually physically pushed her away because it freaked me out. Despite that, I still insisted to myself I didn't like guys despite fantasizing about my best guy friend regularly lmao Anyways my mom spent the entirety of high school and early adulthood (until I came out) saying "it's okay if you're gay user, we still love you" so she obviously wasn't surprised.
Brayden Rivera
it’s good it didn’t traumatize you but a 26 year old pursuing sex with a 16 year old is definitely a predator
not completely same, but similar experience to me user. I liked girls as far as i can remember, started to have boy crushes at least starting from middle school, which is the time I started to fantasize about having sex with boys and watching gay porn as much as I watch straight porn. I denied being gay/bi for years and years while my attraction to males only got more and more clear to me. Eventually I stopped being a homophobe and accepted liking men is based.Since starting to transition I even stopped thinking about girls at all. So I am not sure if I was attracted to them in the first place or that it doesn't matter that much since my primary attraction is towards men.
Hudson Butler
Gay man from a catholic background. Tried repressing my sexuality to the extent that even when I gave up pretending I wasn’t androphilic I still thought I was bisexual. All it gave me is a crippling autoandrophilia fetish where I can only get off by pretending to be the man in a meta-attracted pseudoheterosexual coitus with a woman because it makes me feel like a proper man.
Please don't lump me in with someone who approves of 16 26 relationships.
Cooper Davis
its good sex
Dylan Wilson
Does not having friends or ever coming out or ever seeking sexual/romantic relationship with anyone of same sex or pretend relationship with the person of opposite sex despite knowing full well since childhood I was gay and never denying it to myself count as repressing?
yea >was bullied in school for being faggy so i repressed it >would just masturbate to nothing >straight porn disgusted me >tried my best to appear as a normal straight guy >still had a few guys in highschool ask me out >reject them >think im asexual for years >transition >remember that i used to like guys >finally accept it feels ok >tfw no bf
Luke Allen
>asked out girls in high school for the sole purpose of "proving" to ex-friends I wasn't gay god I hurt quite a few foids badly because of this, I'm sorry
Sometimes I kiss girls at the club, know the kiss feels physically like shit and doesn’t compare to kissing a male, and then I feel the rush of validation of being desired in a heterosexual way and it just… autoandrophile coooooomer moment
Jose Powell
>Have you ever repressed your sexuality, Any Forums? I thought my lack of desire to date girls was only social anxiety and I kept forcing myself to try. Everybody told me I just need to get with a girl to feel better about myself. One blowjob from a girl later and I realized I literally wasn't attracted to them
Camden Ross
I didn't really repress it. I just didn't know. I would jerk off to big boobs and cocks because you know futa isn't gay right and I would get hard from seeing busty women in real life but no reaction from men. Then in my mid 20s I got really close with one of my friends (male) and I started having these strong feelings in my chest and I wasn't really sure what it was. Was this happiness? Comfort? Love? Was love a real feeling after all?? And I was missing it all my life??? The more comfortable I got with him, more comfortable I got feeling thinking about other men too, and these chest feelings were no more limited only to him.
But it's like so weird that I get horny much faster with women but I the "feeling" is not there... Then with guys there is this feeling and it's like the best feeling I have ever experienced. And it's not just one feeling, it amplifies all the rest of my feelings. So with it I can feel really happy or really sad but even when I am sad it just feels so good to be able to feel so much you know. The more I feel, the more ALIVE I feel. Also my early life was me being very passive and dissociated from myself person and I don't wanna go back into that empty void.
But whenever I talk to "true gays" they just tell me that they get nothing from women so I am forever stuck being a biscum I guess...
>going to clubs why do people do this? it's the most cringey environment to be in and club goers are boring people most of the time.
Caleb Ross
>Then in my mid 20s I got really close with one of my friends (male) and I started having these strong feelings in my chest and I wasn't really sure what it was. Was this happiness? Comfort? Love? Was love a real feeling after all?? And I was missing it all my life??? stopped reading here because this is the most relatable thing I have ever read
Gavin Edwards
>it's the most cringey environment to be in and club goers are boring people most of the time. Imagine wanting to have conversations instead of wanting to make out with strangers. Autistic trannies for fuck’s sake
