>late start transition (28) >had been a repressor and struggling with it >androgen insensitivity disorder so didn't masculinize a lot >thanks to good genes (I guess?) coupled with lots of effort (and weight cycling) manage to become a passoid through 3 years of HRT >being a shut-in and never spending time in the sun kept skin youthful, people typically mistook me for being 19-20 before HRT >HRT had people making this mistake more often >voice trained since 16 as a "totally cis but check out my girl voice haha" thing so good there, though voice never got deep to begin with >start practicing posture and such to ensure I look feminine as possible, keep at it until its second nature >finally start girlmoding >realize I hadn't prepped myself for being treated like a woman >about 30 years of male socialization making it feel awkward whenever someone holds the door for me or when guys insist on paying on dates
The fuck do I do about the male socialization brainworms? I keep thinking I should get the door when I see a woman approaching, and feeling ashamed for not helping with heavy lifting when my male coworkers get drafted into some physical task at the office
That's cool. I'm 19 and started hormones 2 years ago. I don't pass at all, have never been gendered female, and appearance-wise look significantly older. I didn't read the rest of your post because passoids don't have real problems.
Realize that now you'd be making people uncomfortable by not having a man hold the door or pay for a date or carry heavy shit for you.
Jordan Stewart
i feel a complete disassociation from this photo
also i dont care about myself
Zachary Wright
but surely you are aware this is making it worse right?
Landon Sullivan
not really, every time i see a thread like this i feel immense pain
Christopher Hernandez
you should leave this website, you know?
Nathaniel Nguyen
what else am i gonna do with the 20 hours im awake i can only consoom so much media before im bored
Mason Bell
extreme sports
Leo Diaz
why? i already know the truth, I can't unlearn it. im not them I'm the other whiner but I assume their response will be the same.
Samuel Hughes
yeah and what they said
i can get people to call me cute sometimes in the right photo bu tihave a neanderthal bone structure
James Watson
im tired all the time because I can't stay asleep for more than 6 hours and it's freezing out and I hate leaving my room because my back hurts and I'm tired and I have to pee all the time and take showers and i have to do so much work just to not rot while im alive t. other user
Gavin Walker
I mean get the door for everyone, that's just manners, at least here
Ayden Peterson
There's a difference between holding the door for someone right after you go in and the thing men do for women where they pick up the pace to get there before you and then open it and hold it to let you go in first
Henry Barnes
>28 >people typically mistook me for being 19-20 before HRT Tfw I'm 18 and people think I'm 25-28 already
Anyway you should rant about feminism to them and make them uncomfortable
I guess. It just feels like I'm inconveniencing people by letting them do stuff like that for me. Sorry sis See Like I feel guilty that guys are going out of their way to show me completely unnecessary kindnesses. Idk anything about feminism to rant.
