I just jerked off to the 3d impact scene in the End of Evangelion.
Right as I finished the real life montage started, and for some reason I ended up watching it all despite my circumstances.
Then, suddenly, I felt like I was going to cry.
Watching that montage with that piano music after I had just pulled a Shinji at the hospital to the seconds beforehand I felt, truly, like the scene was talking directly to me in that moment.
All of my decisions in that moment and throughout my life were reflected in my own head. I have never felt so personally connected to a work, or honest to God anything I've ever experienced before.
It asked if I felt good, and Shinji said he didn't know. I didn't know, even though I had literally orgasmed a minute ago. Shinji said he didn't know where to find happiness, and asked if it was wrong to have his own dreams.
Was what I had done wrong? Perverting a show and movie I hold so dear to simple fap material? Was this really making me happy? The fact I had just spent all night jerking off alone in my room instead of sleeping? Instead of having a reason to sleep because there's something for me to wake up for?
I swear to God I'm not playing this up, I feel like the movie was literally speaking to me, that I was speaking to myself through what I had just done, through the movie.
I just had to share it with somebody and god knows there's no one else out there but maybe some other deranged autist here who could hope to understand what I just went through.
I've never had such a complicated relationship with a piece of media before.
... That said, I'm probably going to jerk off to it again later.
I just jerked off to the 3d impact scene in the End of Evangelion
Don't care didn't ask also you sound like a pussy
what possessed you to s2x04write this text wall
I jerked off to all the porn of Shinji getting dicked down on /y/
user did you have a stroke
that kajixshinji content is sinful
based captcha postn8wwp
even though you're a faggot jerking off to porn is fine
jerking off to the actual/show movie is a whole other deal
no actually it's based as fuck
I don't think I could jerk off to the actual show but Shinji definitely makes me feel something
what is wrong with you people
lots of things but they're mostly unrelated to my attraction towards Shinji
I could write up an extremely detailed post on the exact scenes I jerked off to and my reasoning why but I'm not going to bother unless you genuinely want to know
for the record I'm not the faggot shinji lover
I could never love a self insert when I don't love myself
Any Forums is the instrumentality of everyone who posts here
there are no barriers, and you have to see things that you probably don't want to
why are you gay
you've had the fully realized eva experience user, you finally get it, congratulations!
yeah but I just jerked off to it again
shinji actually decided to leave the ocean
mind you it was a different scene this time but still
what good is introspection that leads nowhere
idk
has every user jerked off to a scene from Eva?
so do something about it and commit to growth
i felt something quite similar but with the last episode of NGE