People are nothing more but careless creatures who only seek what they desire, they will never truly care for you unless you're popular/rich/liked, no matter how many friends you have you will never have that one friend who will care for you, there is no such thing, people only want one thing and it's either similar interest (same hobby), fake love (stabilized financial state) or personal gain from you.
No matter how many times you help them they will not care about it, they can change their entire perspective on you in a single night if someone is more influential than you are, no matter how much time you've spent with them or helped them, they will always do the same.
Why does it have to be this way? Why can't people be anything more than a temporary person for a certain thing, everyone changes friends like they are socks. Call me a misanthrope but I begin to really hate helping people.
People are nothing more but careless creatures who only seek what they desire...
>Why does it have to be this way? Why can't people be anything more than a temporary person for a certain thing, everyone changes friends like they are socks. Call me a misanthrope but I begin to really hate helping people.
You and me both bud
>No matter how many times you help them they will not care about it,
It's not a good deed if you help people, so you get profits later.
I have this "rescuer" personality where I really like to help people and I always expect them to pay back in kindness but I must have been born on the wrong planet. The thing is that I really like the feel of helping but this is not what's considered as cool I guess.
Quit watching American media.
You can only lose 100% but you can earn 500% easily by betting on options
I despise america in every way except for the artistical part, I adore their music, landscapes and some of the games but absolutely hate everything else.
I was never a popular kid and even when I got to be at my best in school I would quickly fall into my worst because of how people were to me, I was mentally harassed through school by a friend and it was supposedly a joke that I can take for few weeks but not fucking years, I ended school by doing a solid 180 on my personality and stopping talking to everyone, it was a weird experience but at least I wasn't in the center of attention. School life was never really nice to me and I just kind of got through depression and school as "that guy". It was weird how I still tried to be friends after all that mental harassment, I don't particularly consider myself smart either.
And no, the friend wasn't just some douchebag, he was a douchebag with huge influence on people, I had no idea what it was about him but we got to help each other through the school until we decided to not be friends.
>fake love
You've never felt the butterflies in your stomach ? Not talking about your rock hard willard, but actual care for someone who's driving you insane. You might be turned on by a hot slut, but sometimes there is something more, another feeling, that one which makes you want to come back from your 150km trip to the cavern with a mammoth rib eye on your shoulder. It goes against reason itself, even.
I don't watch porn anymore but yes, I absolutely did feel that kind of feeling, first it was when I was 15 years old and had actual girlfriend where we would do kinky stuff but not only we were both stupid kids but also I felt bad sometimes, didn't want to make her felt molested or anything no matter how much she wanted it, after we had our fun we ended our journey a year later.
In high school I fell for some girl I just saw for the first time, she was just a perfect girl (visually) that I didn't know I'd love, she wasn't some thot or a slut, quite the opposite, more of a traditional girl with features that some would consider ugly, she had slant-ish eyes, it made her look like she was a little tired but I found it incredibly hot and I fell for her eyes. I actually managed to break the autism and talk to her but after some weeks I just stopped talking to her because I knew that she wasn't into me, at that time I was even dumber because I thought that love you get from very first meeting.
The reason why I hate people so much is because of how often people would leave me for whatever reason there was, I had those autistic breakouts where I would get mad that some girl told someone behind my back that were talking with each other and that was all that there was told, she wouldn't understand that I might have emotional problems or anything, she would just straight up leave me (were talking about someone else, not the one I fell for).
I even had one of those friends who you know from neighborhood since very early days and as much as I considered him as my best friend, he just decided to not talk to me because he found a cooler group of friends.
tldr Im a one unlikeable faggot who tries hard
Keep gambling. It's hard I know. Good luck
I guess there are exceptions to your view and they are called caring parents. Not everyone has them, but unconditional love can only happen towards your offspring.
>I have this "rescuer" personality where I really like to help people and I always expect them to pay back in kindness
That's called a trade. You are a merchant.
You aren't doing things out of the goodness of your heartt, you aren't giving free gifts to people.
You are trading and kveking when you investment runs off.
Post nose.
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>it was supposedly a joke that I can take for few weeks but not fucking years
Life is a joke that you gotta learn to take for your lifetime. Accept that you're not entitled to anything from other people and they'll come to you by pure chance. Not because you want it and maybe even not because they want it. Just stop taking shit personally, because that's the thing that puts people off maybe the most. Money and status only give you more tickets at the lottery, as they make you seem more interesting to people initially, but it's still the same lottery. And most of them don't truly care for you in the end *if* you're popular/rich/liked, they just care about your wealth/popularity.
Another pro tip: don't label yourself as things like "popular kid", or "despising this and that", or "mentally harrassed", or "that guy", or whatever. It's not good for your mental health. Don't pity yourself but think about how you can better yourself, and then do it.
People only have as much influence on you as you give them.
And none of this matters.
I am like the people you describe and I can tell you why. It is because most people are boring, lack ambition and are afraid to get out of their comfort zone.
I become friend with them, but a few years later I have completely outgrown them, I cannot share my successes with them without making them jealous. Eventually friendship is not possible anymore and I have to move on
> but a few years later I have completely outgrown them
Intersting...mentality. This will lead to always being looked down upon by somebody better than you, and always looking down at somebody worse off than you.
In essence, you are exactly like the friends you criticize. Only difference is that you ended up above them in some way.
Personally I don't like this paradim and choose to operate outside of it. Though obviously sometimes I run into somebody that is better off than me, but it doesn't bother me and they get very pissy about that because they percieve it as being arogant, probably because they think I should act like I'm below them to be more inline with how they perceive the social dynamic between us.
I would be glad if I reached the state where people above me are better than me. That would mean that I have reached my natural position in society.
In my last job I worked for people who were obviously worse than me and it pissed me off to no end.
In my current job, I am surrounded by people who are as smart as me (but not smarter), also they are less ambitious.
I am moving in the right direction but I am not quiet there yet
We are talking about friends, and social dynamics above and below.
Not a job.
>In my current job, I am surrounded by people who are as smart as me (but not smarter), also they are less ambitious.
People can be ambitious in different thinsg based on different values.
The thing you are chasing might be meaningless to them and the thing they are chasing might be invisible to you.
I wish i was one of them
I wish i never cared about anybody
Caring and loving hurts in the end every fucking time
Women are not capable of feeling real love