On a scale of 1 - 10, with ten being 'suicide is the only solution', how much of a fucking mess is your life?

On a scale of 1 - 10, with ten being 'suicide is the only solution', how much of a fucking mess is your life?

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7

3

1

1

like a 6 or 7, i'm aware i'm delaying the inevitable

>30 year old KHV NEET who's been unemployed since 2015
Probably like a 7.

8

In my head it seems about 8 but it's probably a 2 if I weren't such a sperg

9

8

1 but I'm going to to pretend it's 8+ anyway.

didn't meant to do that, its just 0

9

I have gave up completely.
Unemployed and wasn’t able to find a job in IT that I want. Have over 300 rejections and that are only those that are being monitored by only one site excluding rejections by email or via other sites.
The thing is that work places want “fast learners” and “quick thinkers” and I am none of those. I studied hard every day and put on lots of work however I look around me and see how others learn faster and do better job than me despite me trying hard. I am a mediocrity that can’t achieve something even when they try. The world doesn’t have a use for the likes of me on positions other than bottom of the barrel.
The last months made me burn out completely and made he hate the whole world.
I really wish to kill myself but I am denied eve this because my parents are alive and love me. They have tried so hard to raise me properly so I feel it would be a spit to their faces if I would suicide.

So now I am unsure what to do. Can’t kill myself but neither have the will to keep on living. A Limbo of some sorts.
I hate this life and this world.

2/10

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9 rapidly approaching a 10
Sick family members, no job prospects

Do you have any work experience? It's a lot easier to find a job when you already have one.

I had half a year of job experience, then was fired because I was too slow according to the boss. After that applied for internship in a big tech company, managed to get a place in my city, was going to get a job over there after finishing internship but Putin Invaded Ukraine and the company left Russia even though they let me finish my internship. Since then I was in search of a job but everywhere only top of the top are required so I am denied every time.
I’ve tried to check internships among big Russian IT companies however after seeing their requirements just to participate and the problems you must solve to get in the program with thousands people competing for the same spot I failed. For example the last Program applied to had more than 5000 applicants and only 12 got in.
I am incapable to compete .

Between 10 and 9

11

why cant you get a job? do you have a disability?

No skills, no qualifications, record low unemployment in the UK.