I broke my phone during a psychotic episode. I thought I was being spied on and I was off my meds. I don't have a job...

I broke my phone during a psychotic episode. I thought I was being spied on and I was off my meds. I don't have a job, therefore I don't have money to buy a new one.

Does this happen in your country?

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I am spying on you.

I'm in your walls

I am your phone

I have delirant schizophrenia but i take meds and even without them i tend to be harmless.
I mainly believe i am a prophet cursed with endless youth and i shall fix the reality because ((())) want to reset it by rotting it

The only 4 replies this thread has are ridiculous and unfunny, so I'm going to destroy this kid's hymen with paste or heroin.

Some time ago I made a post in which I explained that I had tried heroin and it hadn't gone so badly, well, I've become completely dependent on it.

And it's not just the fact that I'm spending money, I myself can notice how I have less and less reflexes and it takes longer to perceive things.

I look at photos of myself a few months ago and it's amazing how much worse I've gotten, I've lost at least 5 kilos and the pupils in my eyes are constantly dilated now.

But you know, the worst thing isn't that it's uglier now, it's the constant hours I spend thinking about consuming again, I self-injure myself just to pass the time without thinking about fucking drugs.

You will think this is bait, but I am being 100% serious, I have considered more than once cause to overdose and die. I'm not a fucking junky, or at least I don't see myself that way, but I probably need to step foot in a detox center.

No I have sex regularly

dude imagine if there was a little man who was living inside your ribcage haha no way though that couldn't actually be true haha lol

I became a schizophrenic by smoking too much weed but literally

I think i had a breakdrown while breathing silicon to clean cars when i was like 17 maybe, but i also think it mainly developed while isolated on my room reading the kybalion

Metal health is a huge taboo in this country, I assume the same in Brazil, people think that it doesn't happen to 'good people' and if they ignore problems it will go away. It's kind of sad. I hope you have a good support network fren.

Based

I only had a selective number of psychosises and in one of them i have ripped off all wallpapers in my apartment because i thought they were illuminating and basically tracking all my movements and telling this to all people in my commieblock
a few hours after my mom got back home and called an ambulance on me

also despite being on meds these thoughts never go away completely. whenever i go out i dont look into people's eyes because of my fear of being spied on and i think (despite being on 350mg seroquel) their eyes are actually cameras
there is also this thing that i can hear them talk behind my back whenever i pass them by and i think they all hate me for no reason, although my delusions can sometimes make me think there is a reason for it
for example i've had a thought about me starting a war with ukraine and that the government have had to get me and people shittalking me on the internet

>I thought I was being spied on
You were not being paranoid, the phones triangulate your position, and mostly listen in to what you say so they could offer you ads. There is nothing about you that some spy agency doesnt know, in fact they are watching you right now.

There are bugs inside your skin
TEAR IT DOWN
TEAR IT DOWN
TEAR IT DOWN

Wrong.
I'm watching them instead

Sometimes i consider trying heroin just for fun
Whyd you start though?

I once spent a week under my bed pissing and shitting on a bucket because of a panic attack, no phone no nothing just laying in fetal position and passing out at night, spent a whole day gathering enough courage just to get out and find a way to kill myself quick before the panic paralized me again.
Mom found me before i could, now im on meds and its all good

>I'm not a fucking junky, or at least I don't see myself that way
You are, and I’m saying that from a place of care. You are a junkie and it’ll only get worse. You should go through with your idea and get help

How are you posting, then? I thought all thirdies were phoneposters.

i thought there was a man watching me in the ac vent on my bedroom ceiling so every night I’d stay up for about an hour before bed and just stare at the vent trying to catch him

yes

i also still sometimes think an aot character was based off of me because both our dads use fear to control and i think he’s me. but i don’t wholly believe it’s true I just spiral sometimes and if i see him i can’t handle it