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My mom always forced me to study hard and get good grades. My dad never let me have friends or go outside after school. I didn’t get a phone till I was 16 and when they found out I created a social media account, my brother snitched on me and told my dad and they beat the shit out me and made me delete it. I had decent social skills and still do, but I reqlly think that most people are fucked up like my parents and I would rather live with myself. There’s not a single person who ever cared for me. My dad calls me his investment and my mum says I need to support the family. In last 2 yrs, I have spent 60k on my dad, mom, and brother to make their lives better because I thought our problems stemmed from lack of money and that would solve their lack of empathy towards their kids.

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Why don't you just ditch them? They clearly don't love you.

That's tough
Do you plan on having kids yourself?

>27
>No sex
>No friends
>Awful family relation
>No activity but work
I... Suffer.

But the money didn’t change them. Now they say I should send them more money and I am a selfish asshole. I sacrificed my whole high school life and college life, party because I didn’t have a choice and partly because I was too poor to do anything, to make the money and make my family’s life better just to be told that I am an asshole. Also, being a brown subhuman from venezuela who has a shitty accent doesn’t help much. Finally found a girl I liked, spent time with her, later found out she has bpd and might kill me. I feel like I am a freak who doesn’t deserve any love and is a disappointment to people. So, I gave up on everything. I have a good job, I have abs but still a freak nonetheless.

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I've already posted this rant yesterday but I want others to see it as well

please help lads
I have trouble organising things and sticking to schedule when something irregular/sudden/unexpected happens, despite the fact that I love being productive and productivity is my main source of "enjoyment".
I have no clue what to do, I saw a psychologist with this problem multiple times but she doesn't really offer any help just listens to the stories I tell her, which is pointless as fuck.
should I seek a psychiatrist instead? I don't think I want to take medication either.

Psychiatrist will only get you addicted to meds, don't do it.

Last year my when I didn’t pick repeated calls from my dad, he sent me a voice mail saying I am not his son anymore and he is blocking my number. Then my mom called me saying I should call him and apologize to him and when I refused she started crying. My dad then went on to say that I am a loser and no girl would ever like me. My mom always shits on me too about how my nose is crooked (genetic) or how my face has acne scars(genetic) or how i am hairy (genetic) or how i don’t look good. Two subhumans spawned a subhuman to shit on him for to take out their daily frustration. My manager shits on me too, my girl in the end also used to shit on me coz I wasnt a pushover to her. I kicked her away and am at the point where I will quit my manager anyday too

Idk but I love kids and would spoil the shit out of them

Coz I am a loveless freak and i still expect them to have some sort of moral conscience

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that was my impression as well but what the fuck else can I do then?
I will have to deal with this eventually and I don't have the tools myself it seems. I can just not take the meds if I don't like them no? I've no idea what type of meds would even help

what's wrong with just waiting for the irregular event to pass and going back to your normal schedule

it takes days and by that time I'm behing schedule and it's not a schedule anymore. by that time I'm behind with so many tasks and I am so anxious that I can't do them. when I have multiple tasks to do that I'm late with, I can't decide what to do and end up not doing either and the effect snowballs further and further
I eventually catch up but it's frustrating and not sustainable. in my current living situation, I avoid these type of events as much as humanely possible but it's still making my life significantly worse

Stop this. No one on Any Forums is white.

The brazilian girl told me last night "I'd like to sit and stare at you for hours"
Why does she say things like that when she says she's over me

give me an example

>Midterms coming up
>Gf's proof of engagement papers have to be drawn up soon
>Still living with my parents (she understands)
>No plans for the future
>Only got into a Master's program because I couldn't figure my life out

Smiling on the outside, crying on the inside. The gf's supportive at least

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I have same problem but mine happen because I get severe brain fog. I always feel sleepy and brain feel like it's operating at 5% capacity, unwilling to even look at anything that require solving anything.

I actually like going to my job, because it's the only place where I can interact with people and don't feel like a lonely monotonous piece of shit

You're not gonna get addicted to meds unless you're taking opiates or some shit, which you wouldn't
No one is robbing gas stations to get money to afford SSRIs or whatever
Meds just might give you side effects
You may as well try a medication and see what happens

What do you do?

I work in the office

>I work in the office

Wtf what does your company do/make? Electronics? Speculation?

i dont ever worry about anything because i am a free spirit and dont give a fuck about what people think :^)

life is hard for a nac sociopath but at least i have above avarage iq

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I work for a mobile network operator company. It's called MTS, you can google it

I only time I was genuinely happy was when I was with friends in middle school or the bps girl. I still have dreams of my happy high school days. Don’t know how to be happy

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Oh wow, digital stuff. Have you and your coworkers taken a hit financially because of the sanctions? Any salary downgrades, etc.