Give me some recommendations for a fucking edgy-ass music for moments when I feel depressed and nihilistic, almost like a cringy goth teen except I'm an early 30-something who has successfully fallen down, or more out of, a rabbit hole and into an identity and belief related crisis that is slowly creating the risk that I become a drug addicted cutter who listens t Blackhole Sun by Soundgarden on repeat and occasionally some random Nirvana song about heart boxes or something.
Also unlike a 90s/00s goth teen, I have taste now and want new things that sound actually good. The model here is that Soundgarden song, which somehow isn't deathly disturbing to me when I'm in this particular mood. I basically just don't want to listen to that song forever on repeat. Give me something else to be depressed and/or apathetic to.
Punk, goth, rock, heavy metal, death metal. Whatever. Not too aggressive like Pantera, but not some weak cringe shit like Evenescence.
