Not surprising I put off the call
Socialized and put up a wall
Anything to prolong the chances
Before confirming she was really gone
I crossed Southwest Second Street
Made the call and stared at my feet
"She passed away about an hour ago
While you were onstage living the dream"
At 7 AM
On a Tuesday in August
Next week I'll be 28
I'm still young, it'll be me
Off the wall, I scraped you
I gotta wake, it comes this way
I can't wait no more
It comes this way (it comes this way)
To drown this ache
To reinstate (Everyone dead, everyone)
(You put me through) Take your place (Put me through hell)
Heaven direct your shape (Heaven direct)
You see I can do it so well
Your expiration date
Your expiration date
Fate, date
Expiration date
This one is gonna last too, hate
Never gonna fuck with me again
My own clean slate
Don't fuck with me again
Makes your eyes dilate
Makes you shake
Irate
I can feel the anger in this user
I thought I found a match
It was just a lighter
johny boy always played the fool
he broke all the rules so you would think he was cool
he was never really one of the guys no matter how hard he tried, often thought of suicide
its kinda hard when you aint got no friends he put his life to an end they might remember him then
crossed the line and theres no turning back, told the world how he felt with the sound of a gat
There's a hole in daddy's arm where all the money goes
Jesus Christ died for nothin' I suppose
Little pitchers have big ears
Don't stop to count the years
Sweet songs never last too long on broken radios
Innocent one
Comes upon a cold device
And time stands still
Sound of a shot
And his heart turns cold as ice
Life unfulfilled
All my guilt
I wished I was the one to die
Brother killed
Now I live to question why
You don't want to hurt anyone
You don't want to burden anyone
You just want to disappear
You're an honest-to-god alcoholic
Waking up again in Beth Israel
You left your mother's ashes in his apartment
Now he can't sleep at night
And wants me to take them
What should I do with them?
Should I scatter them in the East River?
I remember you talked about that;
"The East River isn't romantic anymore, you know
That's where the suicides go"
Or maybe that's what you wanted in the end
To be mixed together and reunited with your mother
Ayo your homeboys change sometimes
Ayo the thoughts rearrange in their brains sometimes
It's too hard dealing with the pain sometimes
But you gotta let go, you can't save their lives
Your homeboys change sometimes
The thoughts rearrange in their brains sometimes
It's too hard dealing with the pain sometimes
But you gotta let go, you can't save their lives
Packed my belongings and I left the jail
Well thanks for the time I needed to think a spell
I needed to think a while
I needed to think a while
Well, I'll go to college and I'll learn some big words
And I'll talk real loud
Goddamn right I'll be heard
You'll remember all the guys that said all those big words he must've
Learned in college
Get off my ass, ya wee bitty fuck
If I pull out the claymore, you're shit outta luck
Who is that girl, that pretty young thing
After I fuck her, she'll get up and sing
Aye, aye, aye
Sharpen your boot, and bludgeon your eye
Aye, aye, aye
The Blarney Stone brings a tear to me eye
Down to the pub, for a two-shillin' ale
The bread on the counter is goin' stale
If I don't get some fresh bread soon
Gonna punch you in your face, and bark at the moon
Aye, aye, aye
Sharpen your boot, and bludgeon your eye
Aye, aye, aye
The Blarney Stone brings a tear to me eye
Ain't got no girl, 'cuz I haven't the time
Got too many other things on me mind
Patty was nice, she was pale and cute
But I threw her away, like an old piece of fruit
Aye, aye, aye
Sharpen your boot, and bludgeon your eye
Aye, aye, aye
The Blarney Stone brings a tear to me eye
Got ooze in me pores, my feet are all wet
Got mold in my ears, but I ain't dead yet
Got stones in me bladder, got a crack in me head
When Patty starts cryin', this is what I said
Aye, aye, aye
Sharpen your boot, and bludgeon your eye
Aye, aye, aye
The Blarney Stone brings a tear to me eye
Mother I tried please believe me
I'm doing the best that I can
I'm ashamed of the things I've been put through
I'm ashamed of the person I am
Just take a look at your body now
There's nothing much to save
And a bitter voice in
The mirror cries
"Hey, Prince, you need a shave"
Now, if you can manage to get
Your trembling fingers to behave
Why don't you try unwrapping
A stainless steel razor blade?
That's right, it's come to this
Yes, it's come to this
And wasn't it a long way down?
Wasn't it a strange way down?
CAN I STILL GET INTO HEAVEN IF I KILL MYSELF?!
Hidden cracks that don't show,
But that constantly just grow.
Looking for the man that attacked me,
While everybody was laughing at me.
You beat it in me, that part of you,
But I'm gonna split us back in two.
PROPAGANDA
SHILL THE THOUGHTS
CONFORM AND PROFIT
A FLEET OF CROWS STICKING TO THE WIND
RUN INTO A BLAZE
THOUSANDS OF PLAGUES
THIS IS HYSTERIC
COMPLLLYYYYY
Plânge printre ramuri luna,
Noptile-s pustii,
Caci te-ai dus pe totdeauna,
Si n-ai sã mai vii.
Pe cararile umblate
Denoi te-am catat,
Te-au uitat pân-astazi toate,
Si ai tai te-au uitat.
Numai vântul mai suspina,
Dulcele tau cânt,
Peste florile ce-alina,
Tristul tau mormânt.
Ca o lacrima de sânge,
A cazut o stea,
Drum de foc si biruinta
Pentru Garda ta.
Bate vântul peste ape,
Trece timpul greu,
Noi mereu te plângem, frate,
Iar tu dormi mereu.
I thought I knew you well
But all this time I could never tell
I let you get away
Haunts me every night and every day
You were the only one
The only friend that I counted on
How could I watch you walk away?
I'd give anything to have you here today
But now I stand alone with my pride
And dream that you're still by my side
But that was yesterday
I had the world in my hands
But it's not the end of my world
Just a slight change of plans
At times, I feel like giving up
'Cause it feels like I've had enough
Felt like my soul in handcuffs
Got questions with no answers
Can't help me out, I need a friend
I'm losing faith in this world of sin
Tryna make ends meet with a week, no sleep
It's like a cycle that never ends
I can't pretend with no handling
I can't take care of no grown man
All by myself, crying out for help
But won't get saved by no Superman
All comes down to the mighty dollar
Greed and lust, abusing power
Clock is ticking, hour after hour
Maybe when I throw my hands, I'll holla
World's cold and you're coming with me back home
Shooting drugs and you never learned at all
Crystal visions informing my black cauldron
Fucking pains all around me when I look out
Look into your eyes and I can hear the silence shout
Read my palm it says we're getting out
Give me the sign of the open eye
I am numb with the lonely lust
Goat of thy flock i'm gold , i'm god
Flesh to thy bone, flower to thy rod
Guns shot by your hands making bodies cold
My lai massacre only 9 years old
Just a victim of the war you sold
Come close see my body alive with flame
Promises you will never kill again
Come gaze into my black cauldron