>Describe your inner thoughts
I had a morbid mood, which even proved him wrong. That humor is also found in love in the recent visit of someone I never thought I would see again, which was as comforting as the divine breath that gave life to the man, as if for a terrible sin there was forgiveness, her visit, the lover of many years, the friend, the confidant, but with her came a problem, I thought that even if she didn't have a car, she would come alone, but no, she came with a man I know only by name and as pedantic as me, jealousy came to light, but I kept it. It was confusing, luckily, noticing my obvious advances, he gave us space. I don't know who he is, I was jealous, and disappointment, disappointment because I know she doesn't love me, disappointment because she has another one, I never considered her a girlfriend, but someone that maybe I would die with. But I understand that she doesn't want me, after all, I will die and she will remain here, there is no way to follow her light, but I don't know, I've been repeating this for 4 years or more.
>Describe your outward presentation
My demeanor in the face of this is as usual, meek, proactive, and with a hint of servile submission. A scavenger, who only feeds after others are served. A parasite at best.
>Describe how you want to be
A living creature, assertive, Herculean, who helps with security, who brings security to others, who lives long.
(Sorry, but I sent a summary of this to my psychiatrist who sent me to see a psychologist, but I don't have the money.)