Is that a possible condition? I'm cis female but my vagina absolutely disgusts me and prevents me from ever being comfortable with getting naked and enjoying sex. I tried doing the whole cis dom bdsm pegging thing, but I will never feel adequate and sexually powerful without a cock, even a neocock would be good.
I have given up on sex, I'll just have to wait until the day that futa cock technology has advanced far enough and I can finally have good sex, or otherwise I simply will have to avoid it until the day I die.
everyone knows dick is just superior the symbol of power is the phallus
Henry Evans
True, perhaps quite a few cis women have such penis envy but it simply isnt discussed in the mainstream. I have been told it's lunacy for me to care this much about having a dick, but as you say, it's about more than just having a dick, a great amount of power is imbued into having one
Juan Carter
It’s normal, I’m also cis f and I started taking T over a year ago to grow my clit, it’s the next best thing to having a penis. It’s almost 2 inches long now, I love stroking it and seeing it go from soft to erect. It helps me deal with penis envy and other envious feelings towards the male body, like the strength, deeper voice etc
Ian Thompson
I understand your feelings about bottom dysphoria, except in reverse, i find vaginas fascinating and good looking, despite the fact i am attracted solely to men. What exactly makes you dysphoric? Sorry for the question, it is just a little bit weird to hear about genital dysphoria from cis person > t. mtf who desperately wants a vagina but scared of srs because of the memes and bad results that i saw online
OP here, what are your T levels if you get blood tests? Or your dose if you dont get blood tests?
I used to blast to 277ng/dL but as a result, the voice change was rather noticeable to others, and I had no way to explain that (also, really bad acne. And sparse facial hair, but that was simply slightly troublesome).
I lowered the dose and now at approximately 125-150ng/dL (gotta test again soon to make sure), which is great for getting the psych benefits and I think it's helping my weightlifting, but I lose the nice scent and also I'm mostly worried that it isnt growing my clit anymore.
So if you low dose and your clit still grew, that would be quite promising.
Liam Ward
you're a trans man, harry
Cooper Diaz
This is just called Penis Envy and Sigmund Freud was talking about it over a century ago
Grayson Martinez
75 mg of test C per week, I don’t bother with low dosing because I don’t care if people are weirded out at this point. Yeah my voice dropped quite a bit but it doesn’t matter anymore, I’m just doing what I want.
Ryan Hughes
I feel the same way. I just want a cock. I feel like I have a cock that was chopped off. I don't identify as a cis female tho, all i know is that i'm not a pooner.
Juan Hall
I just think it looks aesthetically bad, but yeah aesthetics are subjective. E.g. quite like having feminine body curves and how that looks good in fem clothes, so mostly I'm ok with the rest of my body (besides wanting to get more muscle in a fitgirl way which I am working on). But I just think most vags/vulvas look ugly, and even the innie pornstar ones are just meh (the very fact that innie = pretty, makes me think that female genitals are ugly and thus it is prettiest when hidden away).
I think dicks look a little alien too, but not as much, and it has the very nice perk of being a protruding erogenous zone that can feel all the sensation and texture of an erogenous orifice. The one upside of vags imho is how good the inside feels, so whenever I fingered a cis woman, I wished I had a dick to feel that.
It's always nice to hear from someone on the other side of this though, to just know someone appreciates vaginas is nice
Chase Johnson
I don’t consider myself such. I don’t relate to their feelings of belonging with men nor their dysphoria. I’m just doing my own thing without caring about labels, but cis woman on T is probably the most fitting if I really had to choose.
Levi Wilson
Do you agree with the proposition that all afabs should be on some dose of T?
Luke Martin
Well, do I agree with it… I believe women should free to choose for themselves of course, but I think the majority of women could benefit greatly from taking T but are turned off due to their cultural conditioning telling them being “masculine” is undesirable and gross. Women are subjected to so much pressure appearance-wise that it’ll take forever to dismantle the collective trauma of womanhood, a simple “just b urself” won’t make a change.
Parker Parker
Have you never considered that you may be nonbinary? The idea of nonbinary has been distorted with the memes about the blue haired afabs that want to be softbois uwu and all that, but that isn't what being nonbinary is inherently.
Not trying to force any label on you, it's just that as a nonbinary afab who identifies as neither woman nor ftm, and who's going thru a similar gender journey, the nonbinary community has been great for me.
Sebastian White
What would be the benefit/point of all cis women going on T? Just curious.
Benjamin Jones
Doesn’t that clit growth subreddit recommend t gel
Kayden Parker
Well as an amab that’s kind of what I think about us and E (so long as we keep sex stuff working, which is definitely doable) I’d believe afabs profit more from T than amabs do from E though One reason I find this trans stuff so interesting is that it starts disambiguating social constructs from biological constructs and shows what changing them does. Yeah it’s spergy but is there a better way to figure out how to make an ideal society?
Carson Moore
Nta but I just dont feel nonbinary either. I dont feel "between man or woman" or fluctuate in feelings between feeling like a man or feeling like a woman. I feel like a woman who wants to have a dick, and after learning that MtFs can identify as women with dicks, it made even more sense to me that I could still be a woman.
But in the first place, I have very little grasp on gender identity. Like I wouldnt mind waking up as a man if it somehow happened, but at the same time, it doesnt bother me that I am not a man. As a result, my "feel like a woman" is simply because I look like one and I act like one. In other words, my external/physical is what affects my internal feeling, rather than the other way around. If somehow I looked more androgynous, then I might feel nonbinary, but that is not the case.
Blake Jones
I don’t know, I don’t really believe the nobinary label has a purpose at all for me. Even if I adopt it, what changes will it bring to my life? I still won’t change my name or ask people to use specific pronouns to refer to me. I’m ok with being a genderfuck vagabond tb h. Bigger clit, stronger orgasms, no periods, increased physical strength, increased emotional stability, more confidence. Those are the main ones imo.
The other user uses injections, I do use testosterone cream myself (rare adverse reaction to injections) but the idea that it greatly improves your clit growth by using cream has very shaky scarce evidence.
What the other user said, but I believe it is also proven to improve brain volume and spatial intelligence. Also, the emotional stabilising effect cannot be underestimated, it is by far the best effect for myself, I never cry anymore and I feel so internally zen
Alexander Robinson
I feel the same way. i love how my body looks and wouldn't change it, but i feel a dick is missing. honestly my biggest problem is that i'm viewed as a gender.
Robert Campbell
>I never cry anymore and I feel so internally zen is that the t effect or are you actively repressing your emotions? because even if t plays a role in it, a lot of men' inability to cry usually comes from socialization
