/atg/ - Autistic tranner general

>AGP
yesss but also AGAMP
>ADHD
I don't know but I have shit attentionspan and I abuse amphetamines while at work so maybe
>programming
embedded C trannies rise up
>furry
no, I unrionically wish I could be a furry though, it's seems fun
>looking uncanny
yesssss
>asexual
if I don't take my prog then yes

>no, I unrionically wish I could be a furry though, it's seems fun
same. i find some art cute and theres a lot of really nice people but i just can't get over the suits and a lot of the porn

Only thing that really matters is number of applications, you can do things that make you more employable like a portfolio of work and a website and stuff and GitHub profile with PRs but at the end of the day you just need to send out a shit load of applications.

Your university should have a careers person too that can help you

Agreed. Tons of application, portfolio projects look nice (hackathons!). Use any connection you get because a lot of hiring is via referrals anyway

thanks anons, I just gotta build my confidence up. I can do most interview questions but I just totally freeze up under pressure

>cute but suits and porn
exactly the same here...

also at some point I have to wonder where the line between normie and furry starts and ends
what does being a furry mean other than wearing fursuits and having a fetish for anthropomorphic mammals?

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xenia is so good.

And yeah, I've taken to just saying I'm a furry but maybe like a 4/10 on the furry scale. Like I'm not going to conventions but If i got a gf that sent me pics of cute anthro girls I wouldn't complain >///>

>>AGP
Idk, I want to be a futamoder so??
>>ADHD
Yes, on strattera rn but want to move to stimulant
>>programming
I feel like I'd be good at it but at the point in life where I'd like learn about it I was basically a drop out too unfocussed to do really anything. I'm now doing more art stuff for "work"
>>furry
I jerk off to furry porn sometimes, not into the whole scene really though.
Fuck I love her design though
>>looking uncanny
Maybe? Idk I think I can look attractive but I've always been somewhat overweight, I'm in BMI range for like a healthy weight range now but I'm trying to eat less all the time, especially since the ADHD made me have constant food cravings to the point that of course I was never going to be a healthy weight.
>>asexuality
Opposite, hypersexual bisexual
>QOTT: what is your favorite programming language (and why is it rust)?
PowerPC ASM, because I'm a smash bros playing autist.

>QOTT
Hebrew
The most effective programming language I've ever seen

>I unrionically wish I could be a furry though, it's seems fun
All you need to do is be a drawfag and show appreciation to the animalistic form. Maybe make yourself a furry character too.
Plus, being a furry is one of the best ways to passively make money. I'm not even talking about drawing coomer stuff. You can just scribble random fur patterns on on a bunch of dog characters, call it an adopt and some sad fucks are going to buy each one for 30€.

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How do you get into furry comissions if you're not a part of the community and have no idea where furries are and how they buy the art

but how do people go from like nothing to having a fursona. Do most people just pick up adopts or is there a commission market for making refsheets.

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nta but you literally just pick an animal you like and color scheme you want lmao, there's a bunch of free ref sheets to get started, you just have to color them.
There's a huge market for making ref sheets, but most of them honestly just use a base and add stuff on it to pump them out.
Adopts are fine too, but imo if you don't have a character that's 'your own' I'd make one first.

Thanks user! That makes sense. I'm abysmal at drawing, but have kinda been dipping my toes into wanting a sona. I'm an autistic tranny, it's basically required of me.

Why adhd when I had add ? Doesn't add count? Why is it always adhd? Why does everyone have to be hyperactive? I was never hyperactive. I would space out and go into a trance. I'm not a physical person, I had add.

idk the dsm calls all of it adhd now

It just got absorbed into ADHD since the distinction doesn't apply to a lot of people

objective c is objectively superior

>what is your favorite programming language (and why is it rust)?
I'm considering whether rust is a good career choice, but my favorite language to mess around with is Emacs Lisp.

>AGP
>ADHD
>programming
>furry
>looking uncanny
>asexuality
Bingo!

desu there's not so many companies using it, but it's a growing field. Any rust programmer could also mog any C/C++/go programmer anyway so it's not that restrictive
based

Not me. Not a troublemaker. I just can't pay attention. I'm not interested. I don't feel gittery just spaced.
They gave me estrogen and it helped.

I think the "hyperactive" part of the acronym is basically just ushered in by common use. They call it like adhd-inattentive, adhd-hyperactive, adhd-combined

solidity because it makes me money
adhd isn't about hyperactivity dums
whooa how? Did estrogen cure ur adhd? Have you tried ADHD meds?

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Yeah, but it used to be split into ADHD (strictly with hyperactivity) and ADD (literally the same shit but you're not hyperactive). Which is what we were talking about (user got presumably diagnosed as a kid and didn't know the terms changed)

Also lots shrinks were pretty strict with it, I have a classic case with obvious hyperactivity and got slapped with ADD cause I sometimes spaced out in school instead of being consistently disruptive

Sometimes I wish I had paw beans

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where is her finger

They put me on ritalinand it helped. When I got on blockers it helped more and my concentration improved. When I went on hrt it nealy went away. I had to make up a year in school and that embarrassed me.

You're right and the psychiatrist told me add was not as conduct disorder as adhd. I was very sensitive to being thought of as bad .

>ADD cause I sometimes spaced out in school instead of being consistently disruptive

This is why I have to be clear about add and not hyper coz I was very sensitive to being seen as bad. It made he rock snd bang my head.

I love my fellow autistic tranners
imagine a world where every single person was an autistic tranner
we'd be an intergalactic super power

civilization would collapse in a year

I'm one of these.
I'm 19 years old, and I just ordered my first package of DIY a couple weeks ago. The payment seemed to go through fine on my end, but the site hasn't updated to the payment, and they haven't started delivering it yet.
Realistically, I should just email them and ask what's wrong, but, I keep putting it off over and over. Fuck emails, I wish I could just send a Discord DM, I actually know the social expectations for that.

Probably ADHD, I've considered if I could get meds for it
Used to do programming but never got much better than making character run around in Unity2D
Definitely a furry, I should learn to draw them too, since I mostly just draw humans for now
I look uncanny to me, but I apparently look good enough to get Lady'd on ocassion while still boymoding
Not asexual, but I also have very little interest in dating or fucking compared to most people. I like doing some horny drawing though.
Favourite langauge is C#, just because of Unity.

Is there an autistic tranner Discord? That sounds like it'd be comfy.

Not the user you were replying to but if we were all as "functioning" as our neutrotypical counterparts, I don't believe this to be the case.
Rather society itself would be structured differently, things people in society see as rude, yet we do not realising they're rude wouldn't be seen as rude. Things that have a capacity to trigger us would be things seen as rude within society. I would guess that things to help us function would be common, things like weighted blankets would be in practically every home.
You seem to think that civilization doesn't already have these ideas and things that while in context with the evolution of culture make sense, don't make sense right now. While people with autism spectrum disorder understand that those cultural unnecessaries exist because they don't accept things innately.
We live in a world designed for the neurotypical, and that's not out of design, it's just we function differently, we have different needs. Perhaps a NT person born in the world made by autistic people would function better, but is that the "fault" of the autistics? To theoretically make an accomodating world, to struggle with communication when your brain literally functions differently to the people who make up the world.

I have full autism. Have trouble relating to people and kids. Have a fit if touched. Had to go to retard special education school. Afraid of agression. Gender dysphoric and very disturbed. You can't say bad stuff to me.

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R u afraid someone's touching?

Do u have verbal or language autism? I have more a body and physical awareness disorder. Autism is moderate.

my favorite programming language is the one built directly into gamemaker. It has flaws but theres far less annoyances caused by the compiler, it just lets you do stupid shit. Ever since they added structs and object specific functions its also pretty damn complete.

Ive also messed around in other languages (java, lua, c++, c#) and each have a respectability to them but i just want to avoid pain, coding is already enough of a mess. I wish i could just be an artist as a job, having to do all this coding for college then scramble to get a job when i dont really have a resume THEN work with a bunch of ither people on arcane code for the rest of my life seems hard.

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Why do I have to explain basic shit to you? I thought this is the autistic general. You're most likely very knowledgeable about the WoW, grand strategy or coding community or whatever. Furfaggotry is easy to learn.
I'll tell you that most furries are twitter leftist-adjacent. They are huge moralfags about nazis and porn.
I'll list a few sites:
>Twitter (The most lively platform. Easiest to gain traction here because normalfags can see and like your drawings)
>Deviantart (used to be more lively)
>Furaffinity
>Artfight

I love woke!@!

javascript, i know it isn't great but i had to get good at it for school. after I learn some design pattern stuffs im gonna move onto some js frameworks and learn c++ :3

Honestly if you're not already in the community, you probably shouldn't bother.
Most people who get into furry art without having already been in the community see to often end up hating it and seeing it as an obnoxious spect of their job that they only put up with for the money. One of the best things about being a public artist is being able to enjoy your public presence and meet other cool artists, but if you end up disliking the comunity, you'll miss out on that whole aspect of being an artist. There are some horror stories of artists hating the community they've gotten into.
That's not to say you shouldn't get into furry art - but if you do, you should get to know the community first! Just follow a few mainstream artists, follow anything they rt that seems interesting. The furry community is very incestuous and supportive of artists in their community, you'll find a lot of variety quite quickly. The fastest way to get a rough feel for the art community would be to use e621 a bunch: if you're into the porn, that is.

Regardless of what art community you're trying to get into, it's good to have a pre-existing backlog of art. People will be more likely to see you as an artist with a reliably cool aesthetic, and it's even more important if you're looking to get commissioned.
I'd advise getting your name out as a whatever-you-happen-to-be-interested-in artist, and shift more into furry if you're sure that's what you want to do. You could always do kemonomimi art to be furry-androgynous?

Don't worry about your first fursona being perfect. Make it yourself, just make the fursona a character that'd be fun to draw, expect yourself to be embarassed with it after a year; that's what most artists with OCs, furry or not. As an artist, you probably wouldn't want your first fursona to be an adopt. Nothing especially wrong with it, and you'll get some attention from tags, but showing off a little originality early on is good.

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Asking about how to get involved in communities with social standards that you're not used to, seems like a perfect topic for an autism thread to me!

See this word
>acronym
Now see this word
>acorn ym
I cannot tell them apart. No matter how long I look at it they look the same to me.
Also if a sign with words is blinking I can't read it.

WHITEPILL

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Rust, it's C++ but it cares about what you're doing with memory, and it doesn't have headers, and it's easy to use dependencies

Does that mean that autistic people have a better shot at passing?
Also, consider the relationship of Klinefelter syndrome to ASD.

>All gender non-conforming people welcome
Are bio trans girls welcome too?!

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Trans identified cissies are based!

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anyone else feel like their autism is getting worse? it feels like everything is so hard to do these days besides stay in bed, and theres too many people trying to interact with me even in my house (live with parents). Im overemotional, masturbating way too often, and also have been gaining some inexplicable homosexual qualities that I never noticed before (a boy made me nervous today, its fucjed up i coulda sworn i liked girls only)

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okay this is /atg/, right place to be

lately, the thought i've never had cisfem friends has pretty much been suifuel for me
i'm at university, 3months on hrt, fairly androgynous, out as transfem kinda; i have a transfem friend (manmoding) who i cling to pretty much all the time when i'm on campus, which ropes me into situations i can socialize
however, in those situations dysphoria and social anxiety break me, and i end up never saying a single word / sometimes just straight up hiding from interaction

so the brainworms from not having cisfem friends are pretty much persistent and i have no idea what to do about them :<

side notes:
- i've never been diagnosed with autism, should i be concerned i have it? this thread is kinda the comfy hugbox
- cisfem was worded badly; you can probably replace it with "not cismale"

rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php

if youre curious about autism this might not be a bad test to try taking, although it may not be the be-all end-all of tests. heres my test results from a while back for the curious, although I never got diagnosed (i coulda probably but my parents didnt want to, then they just never told me)

idunno how to help with social situations tho sorry...

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>QOTT: what is your favorite programming language
zig

yeah but i figured it was the alcoholism

hi! im a furry

does this mean im cured
t. diagnosed with aspergers

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this is a fishe only zone
pls remove all non fishe

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become cumdump

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Guys im talking to a really cute and sweet girl and I like talking to her but I'm worried, it feels to soon and too random to have a crush but I think I might, idk if it's just because the idea of a transbian relationship seems so comfortable thouh. Also I'm awkward and don't wanna scare her away or annoy her.

mines a seashell!
also it's over, yadda yadda.

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>no, I unrionically wish I could be a furry though, it's seems fun
Copypasted from an earlier thread that I won(wrote in).
Fursonas as a concept are kind-of an outworking of RPG OCs with a made-up word to differentiate them from everybody's normal humanoid fantasy LARP/RPG characters, because Furries latched on to bad puns as a humor gag a long time ago.
en.wikifur.com/wiki/History

It seems to be it's own thing these years, but originally all that "furry" stuff was more about "avoiding taking anything too seriously", rather than "acceptance" "diversity" and "inclusion" which made them fall victim to the insufferable degenerates and women who were more interested in "uwu socializing" and "muh politics" more than creativity and art.
en.wikifur.com/wiki/History

If one wants a serious "example" of "furry" they should consider classic hard sci-fi works such as "Albedo Anthropomorphics" by Steve Gallacci,
en.wikifur.com/wiki/Albedo

Or possibly some of the mature and classic webcomics such as "DMFA," "Freefall," "S.S.D.D," "Kevin and Kell," or the long-running edgy ones such as "Jack" en.wikifur.com/wiki/Jack_(webcomic) or "Suicide for Hire" en.wikifur.com/wiki/Suicide_For_Hire

I felt personally attacked at the motorbike question and the urge to jump over things questions

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Ref sheets vary massively in price, depending on the artist
I think it's a good idea to go for cheap first, and if you like the general design but want a better ref sheet you can get a more expensive commission

Though personally I lucked out big time and was the first person to commission a really talented new artist so I got it cheap and high quality (I later found out she was 12, which explains the price but makes me wonder how she drew this so well)

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>NTs run the world
How fucked are we

e621.net/posts/2318642

Idk, I have all the general symptoms, diagnosed as autism spectrum disorder level 2. Feel too big for my body, have autistic special interests, poor hand eye coordination, have a few comorbidities like sensory stuff, adhd, audio processing issues, anxiety/depression, etc.
I can't really work, in large part to executive dysfunction issues, I can't do a lot of things that I want to do, let alone work for someone else in a job I hate making shit money in order to get slightly more money than what I get because of my disability. The actual supports are pretty shit though.

Hey since I know some of us probably fit into the categorisation, there's a new futamaxxing thread up, since the last one died.

Speaking of clumsy

Does anyone instead of normal social dysphoria or physical dysphoria have mostly kinda proprioception dysphoria?
For example you're really dysphoric about feeling of having a dick (or tits for afab) but not necessarily seeing it in a mirror or other people knowing you have one. Or feeling wide/tall when you're walking around. Just sensations of your own body and its shape rather than how it looks visually

no.. but thats oddly cute

Pic related is mine from not too long ago, I think I fit lol.

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My autism fish is quite deformed this time. Some questions are weird. I don't know how to answer about sex stuff when I'm not interested, and also repulsed by it.

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good morning autistic anons ^.^ i hope you are doing well

lmao. you're not wrong but it's still funny

bump

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>of normal social dysphoria or physical dysphoria

No idea what this is user? I had dysphoria about being a boy, for sure. The first thing I noticed was I could get a A in arithmetic and fail reading because I couldn't see the order of letters in words. I thought I was a dummy.

>kinda proprioception dysphoria?

This is the one I meant. What is it?

I gave examples already, I guess I could describe it as "dysphoria from a physical sensation of being male shaped"?
It would be easier to explain if you asked about specific things you don't get in the post

Example I thought of
Someone with "normal" dysphoria when dysphoric about their hips would probably feel most dysphoric from seeing themselves in the mirror or BDD posting about their q angle and measurements or simply seeing other people with better hips and remembering they look different
I get most dysphoric from walking and feeling my legs rotate in my hip joints which gives me a rough idea of how the entire pelvic region is shaped (not good for a tranny) and feeling like it should work completely differently due to my gender

We're fundamentally upset about the same thing in this scenario but use different senses to process it (mostly eyesight for the person with normal dysphoria and mostly proprioception and general sense of my body for me, hence the name I slapped on it) and would have different coping strategies to avoid it (avoiding mirrors etc. for the first person, constantly assuming weird positions etc. for me)

>Hebrew
>The most effective programming language I've ever seen
unsongbook.com

What was the exact price of this?

I was wondering, has anyone here gotten into tulpas before? I was a part of one community that turned out to be full of eggs. Even the founder of it turned out to be trans, but she decided to troon out at the age of like 26. It was funny to see her go from this confident person with a committed relationship that looked down on me as someone with no experience, to trooning out, getting dumped (her gf was straight), and getting advice about transitioning from me.

Like, $20 or something?
Don't use it as a benchmark though, it was an exceptional circumstance.

Yeah, for some reason one day I wanted to learn to speak to my subconscious and from there derived the principles behind tulpamancy despite never having heard of the practice before
She ended up helping me learn empathy and social skills, although it felt kind of depressing that I didn't even feel like the best person occupying my own brain

I've been chatting with a plural transgirl lately and getting advice on how to experiment with that mentality; I guess, as someone who isn't "organically" plural, that makes it tulpamancy? Kind of?
I'm still just at the phase of experimenting with it and ocassionally using it as a coping mechinism, but I've been making progress way faster than I'd have expected.

I tried to make one and it didn't work even tho I already had something like DID voices before.

I don't think the origin matters. I accidentally made my first one back when I was like 16. Now my system is up to 5 of us, and we have a bunch of cats.
Is it weird that I'm in a romantic relationship with others in my system? It's basically a polycule, where I'm the one that doesn't have sex. It's nice to be able to cuddle with someone, not have to deal with their genitalia or anything like that, and actually enjoy touching someone even though you're hypersensitive to touch. This is probably why my relationships outside of the system don't really work. I know what I don't want, and I only had a bf once back in the day (he also dated one of my tulpas).

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people seem mad at me but i dont know if im imagining it
im too lazy to make a new apu oc
vidya is boring me more than entertaining me

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beretta fiche

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This is my barf box. I will never be normal

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wut

I binge ate and puked but I didn't want to wake my mom, so I puked into my barf box. If you ever feel bad about yourself, at least you're not me

thats not how you make risotto btw

2 years on semi-lockdown isolation has pretty much destroyed my social skills entirely. i feel way more autistic than i used to
it's gonna vary heavily based on skill level, the amount of detail and how in demand the artist currently is.
for a full turnaround ref sheet w/ color, i wouldn't go lower than 250-300 range personally, maybe 150-200 for just lineart
literally just be good and then shill your wares
i like this apu fren

thats rough user...

btw that was a jok
go thro that inr the toilet amd go to bed

I did, thanks user. Your joke was funny, no worries

That's intense and also neat. I made a tulpa before, but couldn't sustain her very well. She seems to exist still as a vague mental tugging or flash of color sometimes that I have to tune into to understand. Idk if that makes sense

what're the fellow autists up to tonight? I think I'm going to get stoned and talked to myself.

drinkan

talk* english is hard
what're you drinking?

a lil beam and some healthy pours of titos

that's cool. I used to drink jaeger straight from the bottle and was a huge alcoholic so I had to quit. Weed makes me more creative anyway, so I guess it's ok.

jaeger is too sweet 4 me
i should buy some weed from the weed shop desu
never tried it

yeah it's pretty nice, weed mellows me out since I'm ppd and that usually leads to 24/7 anxiety, and gets the creative juices flowing.
You should try a few pre rolls then, small investment to see if you'd like it

NTA but I can recommend cannabis oil as a lot less stinky and longer lasting.
The weed shops might have full-strength "RSO" cannabis oil available, USD $25 is an "ok" deal for a gram of oil.
You can actually measure your dose easier with the syringe, in my experience.

yea RSO is great. I just prefer smoking joints and the act of smoking since it's a bit of a ritual for me (I mean, I AM autistic.) I wanna get a bong though, smoke has been rough on my lungs lately lol

This pic makes me wanna hug the poor one-armed floof TwT

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aw. I think we can mostly all relate in this thread though being autist trannies :(

I'm high and cozy and at a cottage, lying in bed in a fuzzy sweater I can stim on, playing Octopath Traveler and listening to music. Is this the peak of life for an autistic trans girl? The only way I could imagine it being better is if I was cuddling someone

Trying to talk to friend online, doing my best to not outright beg for attention
Having a lonely day

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god I'm so touch depraved, that sounds good though.

Depraved or deprived? Either way, sounds unpleasant :P

spiky
i dont like this quiz why did i fill it out

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haha you got me, too high to english

Gonna just sit and hopefully not sweat in my seat.
I started watching star trek a month or 2 ago, and I'm on S6 of deep space nine, watched tng before this.

;_; is this a common autism thing. i feel like i do this with my friends.

For me it's the opposite
I'll look at a message and know what I want to say but for some reason I can't get myself to respond. Sometimes I'll get back in several days, other times I have lost complete friendships

being desperate is cringe and not autistic

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But i also do this ;_; this is why i like having roommates. It's friends I can hang out with just next door without fear of losing them to anxiety over answering a text

It hurts being autistic but not women in syrm kinda autistic

*women in stem
I can't do anything right...

women in stem autism is an extremely rare kind, but very interesting

how do i stop being so cringy
in the moment i always think i'm doing okay, then later if i look at what i said I will always want to die

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If you recognise your past social faults, then that means you're improving

idk its just been so long, i don't feel like i am improving... is it important to go back and look at what I say more? most of the time i'm way too scared. i'll see all the weird stuff I said, how i made people uncomfortable without noticing, how someone was nice and gave me an opportunity to say something but i messed it up etc. it's so painful to look at i just can't make myself do it, or think about it, and thats probably why im so cringy still